Hectic Life

BUSY will be the only best word to describe my current situation...
STRESS will be the most appropriate word to describe my feeeling...

but i tried my best to handle them...

i know i have chosen this path, and i shall not quit... stick to the fight, even when things seem worse...

To my fellow batchmate... take it as a challenge and life will be more interesting if we know how to enjoy life even during tough period....

think +
gambatte....

這就是愛嗎?

這就是愛嗎?

詞:王雅君+林秋離
曲:林俊傑

你確定這就是愛嗎?
真的愛我嗎?
手牽著手漫步斜陽,
就當作浪漫,

兩個人眺望遠方,
以爲愛的晴朗,
當我回頭望,

已淚濕了眼眶

當夕陽變成星光
當愛情換了方向
你一如過往 對愛太緊張
但未來又會怎樣
未知的明天總讓我徬徨
誰給我力量

我不怕你 愛不愛我 只害怕你
以為愛我抓緊我
不算擁有
你總學不會放手

我不怕你 不懂愛我只怕你
把習慣 當作愛
你猜不透 我要什麼

喔 你猜不透 我要什麼

I am here... Kedah...

i am here for 5 days.. having orientations throughout this week... OMG.. we have 2oo of us.. gonna study together in a lecture hall.. with 1 lecturer teaching.. and i hardly imagine how well the classes will be carried on... just hoping that this won't affect us much...

worse still... everyone of us needs to take LAN subject which we din't take last year.. with such a stressful schedule.. which made me really afraid that i can't cope well... with almost 10 hours of class per day..i told myself to be stronger everyday.. and i just pray hard...

it's really hot here.. i just feel like aghhhh... but at night it's damn cold.. and i feel like aghhhh... the weather here is really different.. or maybe at home i hardly stepped out from my door step.. and now i have to walk 500m to reach my Medical building.. it's just like another end of our campus... i think i am getting darker soon.. or maybe thinner?

met all my great friends here.. and 9 of us are staying under one roof... it's great coz they are the only one that we can turn to whenever anyone of us having problems.. happy!!though no more climbing all the way to 5th floor this time... but i still miss my previous hostel..

i miss my hometown and everyone there.. when is my next trip going back home? well.. soon.. and i m looking forward to see him...my big brother... yay...

Monday... classes resume... and i wonder when will i get such a relax life again? probably when i have retired from my job? lol..

BACK TO AIMST

how time flies huh.. i am in AIMST now.. i kind of like can't accept the fact sometimes.. why? anyone can tell me why time flies without us knowing? i hate this kind of feeling.. but during exams..we are hoping that time could fly faster... couting down each and everyday...

i am so tired today.. woke up at around 4 and travelled all the way to AIMST and busy unpacking..settled everything around 9pm.. and little did i know.. i have brought too many stuffs here...luckly can fit into my dad's pajero.. i shall not complaining so much..my dad shall be the one, at his middle age,driving 10 hours of journey just for me.. but without a word of complaints..and my mummy too..guiding me this blur daughter all the times.. thanks to daddy and mummy!!! love ya always.. i just hope that everything will be fine at home without me.. i wonder will they miss me?without this kakak to keep the house clean,guiding them with studies,and my food.. but i am sure gonna miss them... and not forgetting my bathroom.. i miss u so much.. i am stucked in this 16 squares tiles again whenever i am bathing with half covered door.. but i know i need to be grateful.. for who i am and i what am i doing now.. i know.. i will try my very best.. not to dissapoint everyone that loves me... hehe..

i am so alone today... living alone in this hostel tonight.. i hope everything is fine and i won't suffer from imsomnia tonight though i seldom.. hope that i wont suffer from home sick.. i am a big gal now.. i need to be strong and brave... yeah.. i can do it!

seeing so many medic students registered today somehow made me few a little nervous and worried..tomorrow will be our first day of orientation.. and here is my new life... a new beginning and a new page of life...

Inspiration

When things go wrong, as they sometimes will,

When the road you are trudging seems all uphill,

When the funds are low and the debts are high,

And you want to smile, but you have to sigh,

When care is pressing you down a bit,

Rest if u must, but don’t you quit,

Life is queer with its twists and turns.

As everyone of us sometimes learnt

And many a failure turns about.

When he might have won had he stuck it out.

Don’t give up though the pace seems slow,

You may succeed with another blow,

Success is failure turned inside out,

The silver tint of the clouds of doubts,


And you never can tell how close you are,

It maybe near when it seems so far,

So stick to the fight when you are hardest hit,


It’s when things seem worse, that you must not quit.

Happy!!!

It’s drizzling out there and I love it… listening to my favourite music.. with my favourite coffee latte and French toast.. I feel so contented with my life now.. little stress, happiness finds me everyday and I just love staying at home..doing what I like and what I want..

I baked brownies for the first time on Sunday.. Well, with my Sifu guiding me.. who is my Sifu? My sister… gave some to my aunty Catherine though it’s not really successful but just let her taste my first ever brownies.. she thought we added almond nuts but we did not cause could not manage to buy, Bake with Yen is closed on Sunday… what she ate was actually the crust!! The part that almost hangus!! That’s why it is crispy like almond… hahaha..so funny.. but happy cause she praised me and thanked me for my kindness… this is what made me happy on Sunday…

Monday..brought my sister to SS2 night market after promising her for so long and I guess I shall grant her wish before I go back to study.. haha… mom doesn’t like night market.. she will never brought us there…I went to Bread Story.. the place I worked last time..i miss the breads there honestly..i wish to open my own bakery after I retired.. but that is a bit too far… haha.. I am happy again on Monday..seeing people happy somehow made me happy…

Tuesday, had dinner with my 2 best friends.. Kim Kim and Stef.. we gave stef an early birthday surprise.. it was totally out of her expectation… haha.. I won this time cause it’s hard to surprise this little smart gal…happy again on Tuesday.. I know 3 of us are going to be far apart to each other.. feel sad whenever thinking about this, but just tried not to think… but no matter what happened to us, we will just turn to each other and seek help… i know how lucky I am.. and I treasure our friendship as well…

This week its gonna be buzy.. busy packing.. though I felt so reluctant to pack.. busy meet up with my friends…. And buzy spending time with my dearest family..

Life is just like that.. we need to move on.. don’t grieve over the passed.. but just keep looking forward.. happiness don’t seem to be with us always,so just treasure every moments when we are happy..we learnt from lessons, learnt to be a tougher person..people around us care for us, why not we, love ourselves before we love others? i love peace and I hate arguments…

Be brave enough to spread kindness.. you will find that you are happy when seeing people laughing… it’s all up to you to decide, sad or happy? I will choose to be happy… :D as I always do…