My Stories

Silent....

2011-06-22T00:38:00.001-07:00

sigh, what's actually death..
we will never know someone we closed to is going to leave us anytime.
received a call from a close friend, his beloved dad passed away in the morning, where people around the world celebrating Father's day.
i am sad to hear about the bad news, many things came to my mind,understand that we shall not take life for granted, appreciate life as it is, treasure the people around us,
stop complaining about how bad your life is,while someone at another part of the world is struggling from life and death.

sigh, Ed. Stay strong k, i know it's hard for you. i hope everything is going well with you.May God bless you.

Mindset.

2011-06-16T03:49:00.000-07:00

oh yeah, it's you, Mindset..
Can we alter you that was set long time ago?
can we?
as the saying goes, there is a will, there is way.

This issue has finally ended,after 2.5 months.
things that we never wished to happen had happened.Though there is no rewind,but i believe there is always forgive and forget if one able to do so. As i am able,can you?

i believe everyone plays a role. Some play their role behind the scene,some be the representatives,as middle persons, i believe it's hard too, i'm sorry for all the troubles.

I really wanna Thank a person,if it's not you, things might not get better. thanks so much, LJKin. thanks for the change,thanks for the sacrifice. We appreciate it. I hope you are Happy.

And for you R, honestly, you made me realised of something. You are a good friend indeed, sacrifice yourself for somebody, which i really admired about it. i believe that night everyone was just too emotional, talked things without passing the brain.so yeah,nothing serious about it, just wanna say, you are still my friend. :)

The middle persons, zh, zh n twt, thanks for the warm n touching messages. i am touched.

for the person that i din't mix so well before, i hope in future we will know each other better,if there is an opportunity... :) S, i have always liked you too.

and lastly, this issue has come to an end. my only wish, : everyone is Happy, are you? hmm, i really hope so.

tomorrow is your final, GOOD LUCK to my dentistry friends, Caryn, Hsu Wern, Mandy, Nicole, Zi Hui, Serrene and Robson. ALL THE BEST. :)

MBBS YEAR 2 FINAL

2011-06-13T07:23:00.000-07:00

10 more days for me to prepare for my final...
oh goodness, i need more time!!!
6 theory papers plus a practical exam that will be lasting for almost 4 weeks..
do u think is easy? oh no...... it's really hard core..... i am grasping for more air...
i need more time!!
anyone willing to give me extra hours if you are wasting your time?
oh... what am i crapping?
i just need more time...
HAHA..

gambatte to my friends who are fighting for their finals too...
praying hard ...

A Report...

2011-05-21T19:51:00.000-07:00

sometimes, things changed for better.
sometimes, we don't understand people around us.
sometimes, we are just to stupid to live in the unrealistic world.

Oh well, back to my life...
things are getting better each day..
keep myself busy and i'll make sure that i have done something beneficial before i sleep.
no doubt, i am contented with my life.

My sister came to Aimst, not to study, but a visit instead..
returned back to PJ and start her new life in UCSI.
i am proud of you. you are taking my footstep and i really hope you are satisfied with it too.

B3C hostel is now left with Caryn and I. let's burn midnight oil together again..

Dear Penny, i know you won't see this blog but if u do come across to visit my blog,here is something for you : Do take care of yourself out there.i wanna Thank you for your accompany throughout this 3 years as i appreciate you as my roommate all these while. Giving me 100% of privacy and helped me whenever i needed you. Your efficiency will always impress me for who you are. i wish you will be Happier and don't get too emo with small reasons. sometimes as life is beautiful. i respect you for who you are and i respect your decision.

As for Cyean: You are always a great friend since April 2008. i am sorry if i have made you angry or sad throughout these years. The advice that you have given me (under the tree in 2009), always run through my mind. i know i am not prefect, but sometimes i am just a lil over confident... you made me grown up too... As i know it's hard for you to make this decision, if is for me, i will do the same too. it's time for a change, a better one. i will miss you.

And for me, i am currently having 'single' room for 2 months. i hope i will keep enjoying till year 2012. haha... Hsu Wern: rm500 for a bigger room..
with the new portable air-cond in my room, i feel so much cooler and comfort.
THANKS to my dearest dad, i know you always love me ... as i do.. :)

Friends are important. I neglected my housemates for a period of time. little did i know, they are still my closest ones. thanks for your sincerity..

time to study...... oh noooooooooooooo...

Took a chance to visit the temple in Alor Setar on May 17th (WESAK DAY). Thanks a lot Teoh Zhan Huai for making my wish come true.. :) come till the end, we are still friends. sometimes, we shall forget the unhappy things and keep moving on with life.

and for GYC : let's add oil together for the final. i know it's time to study. i'll be more serious.. hahahaha.. don't worry, we will make it through. :) I Heart You. and thanks for the change, we are getting better nowadays. don't you feel so? :)

well, let's imagine what we gonna do after final? hmmmmmm... Just Can't Wait :)

till then, bye bye to Huiping, Brenna, Jacinta, Sying. see you guys in august/ September 2011. Enjoy your holidays. :)

8th May 2011

2011-05-07T08:55:00.000-07:00

i am who i am.
Back to a cheerful girl
and from today onwards, i wanna study hard for final!
wanna make my parents proud!
and i wanna be a stronger lady who knows how to love and protect myself!
yes! here i am to conquer any obstacles!
yeah!!!!!

HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY!
THANKS FOR EVERYTHNG mum !
AND MORE UPDATES soon for my mum..

This is for you.. Hsu Wern :)

2011-05-04T10:08:00.000-07:00

I honestly miss u... the room is too quiet without your voice. i miss u calling me HEHE, i miss u calling me MUMMY or HELLO KITTY.. i miss u sitting on my bed and chit chat with me.. and your massage! especially the time of exam... no one else remembering about my exam,and nobody staying up late with me anymore.. omg, i still haven't go over this.. when i turned to your place,it's so empty that i still imagine u sitting there with your laptop.

Things changed after your leaving. she is no longer friendly with me and till now still yet to find out the answer. living with a person that treats you as if you are invisible is hard. i finally understand your feeling.

I hope you are doing good at your new room, and i know you are. Probably my heart can't prepared for your sudden leaving. the night that we shared a chair to watch you-tube was so memorable, that's the last night before you leave to your new house.

i admit there are too much things happened in April and i am totally stressed out with all these.
PS: i am sorry to Pa and mummy, if i don't do well in ERS exam.i know i gotta be STRONG. To be a good doctor, i shall have very stable emotion. i blame myself as PIECES, as we tend to think 'out of the box' ...

Phin Phin and Bear Bear miss you too... and giraffe keep watching me when i studying.. haha.. and the 'crown' handphone chain, it's still hanging at the same place.. all these little stuffs that u gave to me remind me of you ..

sigh.. why am i so depressed recently... you are no more in the room to listen to me and share with me your thoughts...

but glad that both of us had great time in the rooms.there is where our friendship developed and maybe from here i can understand why HE is so unhappy when we suggested 2 houses instead of 1 house. Probably spitting with friends is a sad thing, and in order to avoid the sad things among the friends, they rather make the out=sider sad. as things will resolve.. just the matter of time..

i wonder how long shall i take to keep all these feeling and back to a happy me ..

i can't take these anymore.. i am kind of sad even when the beloved don't understand me at times. why is it so.. big sigh.

i pray for the BEST..

GREATEST thing i received after all the incidents is a great lesson. and i believe i am stronger since then..

i am looking forward for KHOO CHIA YEE to come over.. at least my closest ones is near with me again. i am happy with this, do hope you do well in your foundation.. *like your sister* haha.....

nites.....

random pictures...

T.T

2011-04-18T14:08:00.000-07:00

I am speechless over everything..
one thing to say is friendship is fake !!
i never trust them anymore!
well, yeah. FAMILY is still the BEST.
and i miss my FAMILY a lot especially in the middle of the night
harsh words, rude actions etc that i have seen through, a person that i am not close with but treat me like that.
please be more matured if you are a real guy k...

Happy Birthday my sista1

2011-03-16T07:33:00.000-07:00

This post is for you ah gurl. 18th already but your Ah Jie still calling you the same even from far. ah giiiiirrrrrlllll arrrrr.. haha.. guess u can here me ..

i know u miss me a lot..cause i miss u too.. lol..but is quite difficult to tell each other right.. being raised up from a conservative family, although we don't hug each other, but i know the LOVE among us is still present. :)

here is my wishes for u gurl : GET JPA
: come to AIMST
: Healthy and Happy
: DREAMS come true
: ................... Fill in yourself
when i was a kid,mummy told me that doctor don't allow her to change your birthday to March, 12th.and so, i always thought that D.O.B can be altered, Hoping that our D.O.B will be the same so that we can celebrate B'day together. As i grown up,kindergarten teacher told me D.O.B is the day when we were born. But daddy always celebrated our BIG DAY together for a decade probably to save cost..sharing 1 cake,blow the candles together and make wishes together.although, we both wish so much in heart to celebrate our special day individually during those years. Now we are far apart and we no longer celebrate B'day together.. but i end up missing the years that we celebrated together..

Found some pictures of us from my lappie, see how much u have grown up..

H@ppy 21st B'day to me..

2011-03-13T21:07:00.000-07:00

I had a great B'day celebration this year. specially thanks to my DEAR: Goh Yi Cheng
and bunch of GREAT friends : ZiHui, Zhanhuai,Serenne,Weng Terr,ChiChun,Robson and JitKin.

not forgetting my LOVELY roommates Penny Tay and Hsu Wern :)
and my housemates especially Cyean, Huiping and Caryn for the cute gifts..
and hundreds of warm wishes, your sincerity- i -have- received,thanks a lot my dear friends..

i am too glad to have you guys around me and i don't know how to express how lucky i am..

thinking about Japan, i hope i have super power to help them.. May god bless Japan.
my B'day wish...

more story to tell,but hard to express by words.

thinking about home returning on 26th, no matter how emo i am,i will still draw a smiley face :)

that's my home, my family.. <3

a BIG sigh

2011-02-25T22:02:00.000-08:00

Things had became so mess up recently..
why is it so... things had been smooth but not these days..
u see me as someone who laughs easily.. but i did admit that i cry easily..
u see me as someone who do not care about everything.. but i care about everything...
sigh...
"A small thing would ruin our friendship".. deleted me from your FB account surprise me very much.. i have never thought that u would do this to me.. i convince myself it is a FB error.. trying my best to keep me emotionally stable..try not to think about u,but i can't manage myself..
probably i had hurt your feeling deeply..but i just want to let u know,i have no intention to ruin our friendship..things happened but not as complicated. and all,for sure,it is not my arrangement,why me? why would u put the blame on me ? it's a small case,but u made it as a big deal..
How should i tell u that i want to be your friend i want to exchange stories with you.
and i don't wanna lose a friend like u ..
sad :( i do hope u see this.. especially posted for u B.

Happy New Year, 2011

2011-01-01T22:11:00.000-08:00

It's 2nd of January 2011
2010 passed swift and silent without noticing..sometimes i so feel like turning back the clock and rewind back to the past...How much i wish i am still a little kid with no worries..

i have more than 10 diaries which i started since 14... things happened and it get subsided.. maybe sometimes i have too much to think, and it made me so active even when i am sleeping.. dreams always hunt me. sometimes a good one..but sometimes a bad one..

2010 was a great year indeed.. lots of sweet bitter memories stored in my brain and it will remain forever..

Have my first Bf in feb,first valentine's day
A memorable birthday in March
A wonderful trip to Penang in May
A stressful June and July due to final but was definately worth it.

The places i had visited in Msia : Langkawi island, Genting, Melacca, KLcc science centre, Putrajaya Taman Warisan Negara, I-city....

what about 2011? well, people have dreams and hopes.. for my new year resolution,
i wanna be more healthier, happier, and richer..
i wanna save my money n spend more wisely..
i wish my studies can go smoother, easier..
i wish my relationship with my partner is good all times....
i wish my parents and siblings are healthy.. especially my dad and mum..
i wish i could go Singapore this year..
i wish i can be slimmer and prettier..
Last but not least, i want to be a good doctor in future..

Happy 11th month dear.. you have coloured my life. Thanks so much! ^.^

MBBS 2nd year..

2010-09-01T01:41:00.000-07:00

Here comes again my life back in AIMST.. Started my year2 for more than a week..and i am still sick since the day i am back..Just hoping that i will completely recover by tomorrow.. :) cause my to do list is already piling up.... :S i guess my cough at night did annoy my roommates in the middle of the night.. opps.. sorry..

someone once told me that MBBS is not hard.. probably the mentality that makes me feel that this course is tough..i was wrong to have this mentality.i believe MBBS is just as similar as other courses..as the saying goes: there is a will, there is a way.. and i believe i can do better in my year2... :)

I am feeling good these days... as i feel that our relationship is getting more stronger... somehow made me realize that love is not about Fairy Tale...is about understandings and sacrifices...why would we care for each other? is just simple.. because we love each other..friendship love is the same too.. why would you angry of him or her? because we care for him/her.... Empty promises is not meant to be.. but somehow done without intention... i was quite wrong that i put importance on promises.. which i realized... the less we hope.. the more contented we would feel.. why ask for more? greedy made us mad..simple and easy.. this is the life we shall lead..

this is just some crap from me la.. haha..
tonight-- japanese food!! Yippie!!!!
2010-09--01
is september... time flies huh...apreciate the moment that you are having now.. enjoy the process.. enjoy the bitter sweet moment..
BE HAPPY :)

Dream? No..

2010-08-16T06:32:00.000-07:00

sometimes i just don't dare to dream too much....
hope too much and ask for more...

the more i dream..
the more will get me disappointed....
sigh....

whats up!

2010-08-10T10:02:00.000-07:00

oh oh oh. yea yea.. i went for PC fair in KLCC ! first time in my life!! lol.. seems like i came from jungle..took LRT there..
OMG.. it was really really crowded as it was the last day of the fair..
but people with the mentality of CHEAPER and thousands of people squeezed into the halls..
i got myself a printer.. wohoo! i am so happy..a mp3 for my sister and an pink color ear phone for myself too.. 300+ gone in a day..

went to Sg Wang with Caryn today... she was searching for a baby bottle in giant.. and we couldn't find it.. so for the last resort.. we turned to the malay guy at the counter.. i did a stupid mistake by asking him : excuse me, sini ada jual babi bottle?
O.M.G it was so shameful that i could ask babi instead of bayi !!!
luckily he was smiling at me.... pheww...

i shopped today too.. spent 200++
so happy that i got all my needed stuffs

my appointments : wed--- visit to a doc
thurs---- hehe... outing wit my YC
Fri------- meet up wit stef n peng khuan
sat------- shopping with stef n kim
sun-------- go to salon

aww.. and here.. it will only leave a week for me.... and my year 2 is starting....

i love my life !!

2010-08-05T08:34:00.000-07:00

ohh well.. again.. August is here..the month that i'm gonna start my uni soon..

but i 'm still enjoying myself very much..

with non-stop outings! and my pocket is burning a hole.. just hoping my allowance will come as soon as possible.. there are lots of things that i hope to buy and i wish to have it.. here is the list :

1) A new diary (a new life begins in degree year 2 )
2) A new printer (the current one is too high to maintain)
3) A new purse (is tearing probably i use it too often!)
4) A new phone (if i have enough money )

two and a half weeks left and i shall start preparing..send my laptop for repair and get a new hairstyle.. am thinking to try on new hairstyle but just afraid that i would regret later..

next week i shall get all the things done.. not forgetting some shopping for friends' presents....

went to Midvalley today.. met up with Uni friends and watched Tekken.. O.M.G. i don't enjoy the show.. had Carl's Junior as my lunch.. surprisingly i can finish it probably i din't eat my breakfast.. and went to Spaghetti Farm for dinner.. the price is really reasonable i would say! good try!

for this 4 days where did i visit : 1)Kin Kin Pan Mee in KL
2)Tutti Fruity in Tmn Tun
3)Bubble Tea Cafe in Kepong
4)Night Market in Kepong
5)One Utama shopping mall in PJ
6)Jonker Street in Melacca (awesome trip wit YC)
7)Time Square (Sorcerer's Apprentice.NICE!!)
8)KLCC ( Science Centre)
9)Midvalley
OMG.. i'm kinda busy huh.. lol..
tomorrow another outing! haha.. gonna meet up with my 1 Cempaka Gang..

and then i guess i am going to get a MP3 for my sister in PC fair too.. hope i get to go there on sat/sun..

good night people.. ^^ i love my life now..

Feeling better day by day

2010-07-25T10:28:00.000-07:00

hehehehe...its now 1.40am.. my sista having exam on the next morning and she is still burning midnight oil.. haha.. i can't help much besides giving my moral support...

i took a chance to pay a visit at KL Pac with my high- school friends.. watched some live performances... and had our supper at Murni, SS2.. it was nice experience and yeah.. i love it!!

its been almost a month i am Back to home... how time flies huh... basically busy withs lots of outings... catching up with some gossips and updates from my close friends... other than this.. i will stay at home watch my drama and do some houseworks.. haha.. time to slim down! Not forgetting my date with my youngest sista every evening... jog + Badminton!

i am doing fine now... think positively for everything that goes around me... and days are becoming better for me.. i miss AIMST though... i miss the life there though i been complaining so much when i was there.. haha.. one of the reason for me to go back......... hehe..

knowing you since we were young.. its been 5 years since your presence in my life.. and thanks for everything that you have done for me.. hehe.. i appreciate it well... GYC <3

random

2010-07-21T21:12:00.001-07:00

sometimes i really hope i can go back to AIMST ....

i don't like this kind of feeling....

sigh.....

Genting Trip

2010-07-21T05:16:00.000-07:00

Hey peeps.. i am back from a 3 days 2 nights trip in Genting...
together with YC,Chun,Mandy,Zhuai,Zhui,Terr,Robson,Jit Kin,Ying,Serenne,Amelia,Ming Fang...

a lot of pictures were we took and soon will up-load to my blog once i get those pictures..

was not really feeling well on the 2nd day.. and i vommited..... missed the cork-screw that i wanted to ride on... sigh...

maybe due to my tiredness.... too much of outings n lack of sleeping and made me feel so weak these days.. i want to be HEALTHIER.. My new GOAL... JOG everyday!!

i am not happy.. i don't know why..is hard for me to express.... i hope we will be better..... i hope i will be happier and i hope i would forget about everything that hurts me... no arguments no shoutings cause i am tired of all these....i hope she is fine.. :(

Life Is Unpredictable

2010-07-13T20:28:00.002-07:00

Yea.. life is unpredictable.. why did i say so.. things happened when it's too late for us to change..
was discussing with him about his grandpa at Mid Valley yesterday night.. thinking that his grandpa is getting better and will recover soon but i received a call this morning which i purely thought it was just a sweet morning call but instead he told me that his grandpa has just passed away... OMG... quickly got up from my bed.. trying to hold my tears... :(

This reflects me about my uncle.. who is now suffering from liver cancer... :(
i am so afraid... afraid that i would lose him one day...
seeing him suffering everyday but i can't help...
i pray that he would be fine
that he would be cheerful even though at the final stage of his life...

This is why people say life is unpredictable
i said life is like a wasabi
it gives u the taste of excitement once it enters your mouth
but tears rolling down after a few seconds..
life is full of ups and downs
at times, we are HAPPY and sometimes we are down....
treasure every moment and STOP complaining..
As for me, i am tHankful for what i have...
seriously... i feel that i am so lucky..... <3

i am back to PJ !

2010-07-11T03:49:00.000-07:00

wohooo... people! i am back to my home for holidays!!
i have so much to blog but i don't know how and where to start from....

i am back for 5 days.. but i felt i have done so many things within this 5 days
well...
1) a double-date : me n my YC & Zihui n Zhuai at OneU and The Curve..
2) a shopping day at KL with my funny Caryn
3)a nice n warm steam-boat dinner with my family
4)a visit to dentist and a doctor
5)a spring cleaning of my room
6)a meet up with Li Theng n Stef

wow.. i feel so proud! but i am seriously tired....
but HAPPY n CONTENTED!!! but wait..wht din't i mention about YC? yea.. he is not around for these few days.... but he is coming back today! haha..

oh yea.. i wanna share my great good news with everyone... i have PASSED my first year of MBBS!!!! i am really HAPPY about it and can't wait for the second year to come that i could experience it with my dear YC..

Congrats to all my friends too... especially :ChiChun, WengTerr and Zhanhuai!!!!! thanks to everyone who had aided me during my toughest period.... and i am so glad to meet this bunch of helpful friends!!!!! :)

Genting Trip is coming... i am looking forward..

exam season

2010-06-11T07:02:00.000-07:00

i crave for the life when i was a kid..
i crave for the food that i ate at home..
i want to go home....
i want to take a break....
FINAL is coming in 3 days time..
i hope i can go through this time..
thanks for your presence in my life..
u been guiding me from the first day we met...
i LOVE u...
Yi Cheng....

It's predicted.. so just let it be....

2010-03-30T19:41:00.000-07:00

i feel not right.. tired? of what? of life? not really but just something happened recently making me more stress besides studies stress.. i don't know how to express over here but just a sudden urge of feel like blogging and burst out my feeling over here...

and i really learned.. i should have protected myself and don't be the peacemaker... trying to solve things out but ended up making things worse and i feel sad of it.... such a stupid act and i shall just stand aside let them be and be ignorant at the first place...

things maybe are not as serious that the girls thought.... it's mostly accumulation of misunderstandings and something it's gonna burst one day just like volcano.. we tried to be as tolerate as we can but people just don't see our tolerance and ask for more.. why???

everything has a limit though they said only sky is the limit.... sigh... what i have learned would be talk less and talk the right things at the right time.. sometimes it would be better if word left unspoken and not to kill another with sharp and torn words..

i just feel not right....

i will just tell myself now... think before i act... just like our recycle bin :THINK BEFORE YOU THROW"

Life is just like that.. i fall and i learned... i know i gotta be tough... journey is still long and bumpy.. hopefully i would be fine.... i just don't care anymore... Dissapointed might be my feeling right now.... characters of ones are hard to change and so i would just accept for who they are.. knowing them and keep a distance always would be the best for all...

another thing... GOSSIPS kill friendship... apply especially on girls... but they just LOVE gossiping....

i shall get back to my track.... study!

April is coming.. CA4 is near and not to mention about FINAL.....

i can't wait for holidays!!!!! that's still far i supposed... but it chills me down when i am stress...

and i think i feel better after blogging.... :)

CA3........

2010-03-10T04:32:00.000-08:00

i have soooo much to blog..... but i have no time to blog... and i ended up letting my blog rot...... sigh....... good luck to myself....... and i m getting older in 2 more days....... say bye to teens n welcome to an Adult life.........am i ready? i dun think soooo.... haha...
wat m i saying??

must be studied till crazy.............. i cant stand already!! i wanna go back home!!!

counting down for CNY....

2010-01-23T04:53:00.000-08:00

Hohoho.. i have just realised 18 days for me to get away from this paddy field.. hot n humid with bunch of irritating yet disgusting green bugs as my room visitors everyday.... creating scars on my arms n legs... :S

i miss my Grandma's place..after i made my last visit in June 09.. its really a small village i could say but at least no GREEN BUGS there...miss hanging out with cousins....miss playing badminton with Jun Yang.. chatting with Jeanne and crapping non-stop with Harrison... last but not least... my little cute Kai Xian...

How time flies huh.. CNY is coming in 20 days time... falls on Valentine's Day 14th of February...what a coincidence.. it might be a right day for people to propose to their love ones in their future in-laws place huh... haha...

Got back my epidemiology and physiology results.. thank God that i have passed both.. but i m still aiming for a better result.... at least i din fail my epi paper this time... i shudn just aim for pass i guess... that's too risky...

i would be having a short CNY trip back to home... coming back to aimst on 16th February... which means less ang pao this year.. haha..its ok... i don't mind...its worth to sacrifice for my studies...

Did some stupid n blur stuffs again today.. wanted to call Mandy but without realised.. i called to the next room Caryn Chow..another one.. i shouted "aghh" who off the light? while i was bathing.. Hsu Wern was there in another bathroom.. she said "no arr" and i found myself closed my eyes voluntarily due to the entering of facial foam..i am really speechless for my own.. hmm... i wish i could be more alert sometimes...

i baked cookies for my aunty in 2009..

My DaRliNg

i miss u DaD....

cOnFuSeD

2010-01-15T19:56:00.000-08:00

my current health status : weak
my current state of mind : confused
my current mood to study : negative
my current mood to eat : no appetite
my current feeling : tired but not sleepy

what's on my mind?? i am so damn confused... what's wrong with me?
humans tend to be so weird at times... long for something but when the thing they desired came.. they tend to refuse... and when the thing has gone for life... they would regret......

every step, every move.. it counts... and so.. dun make decision simply.. think carefully.. act appropriately...

at least to find the truth that making u confused.... and i have found.. that's great isn't it.....

3 more days for me to have this honeymoon days..... and everything get started again...so do my engine... i need to restart it... pump in petrol and keep moving..... achieving my goals and my destination..... go go chia wen!!! i know i can do it.... nothing is gonna stop me... as the saying goes... NOTHING IS IMPOSSIBLE.........and evrything is POSSIBLE..........
hmm... yea... including a relationship while studying?? i wonder....

HAPPY NEW YEAR 2010

2010-01-12T22:45:00.000-08:00

Oh oh oh.. i m back.. finally i got some fresh air to breath.. been so so stress while preparing for my exams n it finally came to a break.. before the next battle starts exactly 55days ltr... what a tiring course i have chosen... i would sometimes hesitate about my own capability.. would i manage to survive and passed all the obstacles within this 5 years? worries somehow strike me on n off.. i know.. i am just lack of confidence again.. i m just hoping for the BEST and at the sametime pray for a healthy body... fall sick again just a day before exam.. thanks a lot Caryn for accompanying me to hospital... :) i would remember ur Starbucks...

Semester 2 just started but assignment and lecture notes are already piled up.. was actually planned to go back this week since there are 5 days of holidays... but i changed my mind.. better stay here... going to Penang on tomorrow AGAIN... this would probably be the only destination i would go when i am in Kedah.... wanna make use for my holidays to rest, study,catch up with my taiwanese series and most importantly... write my new year resolutions.. as i always do...

wohoo.. i m listening to Hua Sha by Cindy n Jay Chau now.. replaying it for hours and i am still so in LOVE with it... nice song!! thanks to my good friend who shares the common taste.... thanks for sending me this song.. i love it.. :) i wonder u will visit my blog... hmm..

i would say gals are complicated creature.. even me myself whom i always thought as a simple gal, dun know what i want in my life... sometimes things seem to be so complicated n i am too afraid to make the next move.. too afraid to bear with it... we think differently.. not always in a logic ways but there are just so many tiny minor things that we gals actually think about, yet care about.... trust me... gals are never simple especially as we grown up... or probably... humans are never easy to handle.... anytime anywhere we might hurt someone without knowledge... with thorn words n rude acts.... cant we just be more simpler and lead a very very simple life? which i always hope i can....

i learnt from my pharmacology lecturer today... he told me : dun speak while u r angry... which i really agree with him.... we might prevent lots of unwanted incidents if we do follow this rule...

i am tired... accumulation from last week.. had a terrrible but unforgettable experience in my life... burning midnight oil together with Hsu Wern n Caryn.... sleepless nights lasted for 2 weeks...n i think its just a beginning of my life...so much of funny things happened in between... i wont forget the jokes me n caryn made while brushing teeth late in midnite.. and the YOGA i learnt from Hsu Wern to release our stress... there were so much fun in between though we were so stressed up... and i think this brought us closer.. and i m grateful :p

heres some random pictures i have after exams.... went Lebooss to celebrate n went to Tesco the next day....

OvERvIeW

2009-12-11T02:35:00.000-08:00

Nothing much to blog about but just some observations and happenings in my life recently…

Some people are smart but some are hardworking

Some people are considerate but some are just so selfish

Some people are noisy but some are quiet

Some people are tolerate but some just dun willing to do so

Some people are annoying but some, we are just so LOVE to be with them

Some people dun reply our message but some are so willing to send us a sweet message

Some people study smart but some study hard

Some people dun understand us but some are just too understand us

So.. Which categories are you in?

People around me with different characters, different habits and with different point of views...we accept for who they are and try to compromise with them…
This is life.. not too long..yet..not too short.. its December.. and very soon 2010 is reaching.. and so fast.. I am 20 years old soon..but I am still behaving like 12 sometimes.. :p

A lot things happened this year..

i think i shall summarise all and let it be a memory of my life and my story... ^.^

January 09..

It's new year.. and this is the first time ever i celebrated New Year in AIMST..with Nicole and Penny.. went to cafeteria for supper n welcoming New Year around the clock tower in AIMST.. Celebrated JaCinta's bday as well on 19th by giving her a surprise with an album.. oh gosh.. look at my cute little fringe.. i will never cut it again!! haha..

February 09..

i still remember this was the busiest month of the year.. with 5 assignments all came together and at the same time Final was just around the corner..the most happening was our Bio Fair.. i really learnt a lot and it actually bridging up our friendship..i will never forgot how cooperative we were and its all worth the price.. went out for celebration after Bio Fair...thought of Joshua suddenly... who is now in MMU.. kinda miss him .. :S

March 09..

huhu!! this was the month that i was touched.. it was my FINAL and my BIrTHDay month..was really stress with my studies.. i know i gotta do well in order to enter my desired course.. DeAreSt Friends poured me with huge SuRpRiSe...i will never forget.. played hide and seek around the campus till 2am.. omg.. such a big babies we were! THANKS a lot for celebrating for me.. i appreciate it well.. :) not forgetting our GENTING trip after FINAL on 27th of March.. really had fun with u guys.. and this was the first time i entered outdoor themepark.. surprising huh..yup.. its true..

April 09..

came to the month where i was finally back to my home PJ.. for 4 months of holidays! the longest holiday i had ever.. and little did i know.. it passed silently fast.. i really made full use of this holiday... learnt driving, took part time job as primary teacher, tuition teacher at home, a little helper at home, a waitress at Secret Recipe, non-stop-meet -up with friends and stuffs... i had my BEST memory in Puay Chai.. and a terrible memory at Secret Recipe where i really learnt n became tougher...

and i guess i shall stop blogging.. to be continued next time when i am bored n got nothing to do..

life is short.. this is why i treasure every moment i having.. the people around me and the current life i having now.. i am so contented.... thanks to all my friends who really colored me life and i found myself quite Happy since ever i came to AIMST...

With the STRESS of course i carrying with myself most of the time in Degree.. but still.. i will continue to be cheerful and i believe in happy go lucky.. which i really know... i am so so lucky for what i am having now.. a warm and harmony family.. few BEST Gal Friends in PJay (Stef, Kim, Sin Yee, Peng Khuan, Ki Jun).. few in AIMST (HuiPing,Caryn, Penny n B3C, Clian).. and some really good Guy Friends around me.. u guys really helped me a lot whenever i am lost... a BIG thank you to u all.. REALLY... like what my lecturer once told me.. work in a TEAM and this is what i really do in Degree.. dun feel selfish n stingy when come to studies.. no points cause end up we will be the one who lost...

Making my final decision to enter Medic.. and i have yet to regret so far.. looking forward on the day i am graduating.. and my long long journey infront..

a typical Pisces.. a typical me... yet an unique me.. haha.. :p

gotta study now.. fighting for my future.. and i hope i will do well for my coming CA..

keep keep praying and i know success has got its price to be paid..

cheers... <3

Monday is coming..

2009-11-22T06:14:00.000-08:00

me and Clian... my batchmate.. :)

Caryn!! big gal d.. Happy 19th Bday...

Kimberly, Stefanie and me.... BFF!!!

i am suppose to study my Mr Anatomy now.. but the urge to blog suddenly came to visit me.. and so my mind flies away and knocked the door of My StOrIeS... i am so so addicted to a song recently.. been listening to days for hours and i am still so loving it..

Been down for few days.. probably i am stress again.. got my results..well satisfactory except for Epidemiology.. my prediction was absolutely correct.. i failed in my paper.. quite proud to say that this is the first ever failure in exam.. and this is the feeling.. sad + moody + emo... i was totally down and mute for the whole day.. scary huh.. but this don't last long.. the chatter box of me resumed back after few hours.. haha.. and i am thinking positively.. will try my best for the coming CA.. i should'nt take this subject for granted again...

And the next exam is coming.. not planning to go back as exam is just after holidays.. gonna stay here and the nerdy me gonna study study and study..but i still miss my home.. maybe i will change my mind? i dun know.. but hopefully my parents are coming to visit me..

ohhh...i cant wait for the day--- 18th December... going to have buffet in Penang.. and i wanna shop shop shop.. and enjoy sun set by the sea.. haha.. and i just cant wait.... haha.. with my dearly friends.. celebrating Mandy's bday at the same time.. =D hopefully the plan is going to be smooth...

my dearly sweet noisy funny Caryn's bday just passed.. -16th Nov.. had a little surprise for her.. haha... hope she liked it...

and something really annoying me here... so many flies fly into my hostel unit.. i just cant stand them.. really annoying.. and there are 6 in my room.. trying to chase them out but its hard.. i think more are coming in instead.. haiyaya.. i need a electric chock racket...

tomorrow is monday again.. and so many weeks has passed so silently fast.. end of Nov is coming and this 2009 will be ended soon.... this is a fast year again... had lots n lots of memories crafted in my mind... and i m just so sentimental sometimes.. cant accept the fact that time really flies....

And at this moment.. i miss my 2 Besties.. where are u guys? Stef? Kim? doing fine? i wondering...

Having Anatomy Practical tomorrow... muscles of lower limb.. i wonder how many new muscles will be introducing to me again... OMG... i am going crazy with the muscles... i think they will appear in my dream soon... coz their names appear in my mind most of the time.. n i heard people saying the person that u always thinking about are going to appear in your dreams..haha.

just crapping...

okie.. 8 more minutes to reach monday.. people.. have a sweet sugar dream... good nite.. a new week, a new beginning and a new hope for me... :)

Updates...

2009-10-30T06:36:00.000-07:00

i had my final paper yesterday.. well. i know i did badly for this Epidemiology paper and i am preparing for the worst...trying to think positively and i do hope i will passed this paper.. i just keep praying hard.. hope LUCK is by my side this time...anyway... i just wanna put this aside.. no points thinking about it and i shall just keep moving on.. learn from the lesson and try harder next time... yes.. Gammbatte to myself.. :)

yesterday was Cyean- my 'mummy' 's birthday... one of my good friends and housemates... we gave her a surprise... she will never thought that we gonna celebrate for her as everyone is so busy with studies and exams.. with 20 of us together celebrated for her and our really lovely handmade presents...... hahaha.. Cyean : stop saying thank you and i am really happy that u actually appreciate it well... i do hope u had a memorable day.. :) and i never thought that u would cry.... hahahaha... perhaps u were touched... haha.. but what i wanna tell u is... u r worth for us to celebrate for u.. :)

but honestly.. i was seriously tired... lack of sleeping due to my pack schedule...and luckly its Friday again... i took 4 hours of afternoon nap... and i got myself recharged.. and i am feeling good.. haha..

good day... and cheers :)

HOLIDAY!!!

2009-10-14T09:16:00.000-07:00

I am really seriously exhausted.. endless assignments, reports and exams really made my life so busy n stress that would almost drive me crazy sometimes..but i always feel myself as the luckiest one...with so many caring good friends around me.. who always cheer me up when i am down with their courages and supports.. thanks C3B!!! and everyone..

When you see your effort being granted one day.. the feeling is so great and u would feel that what u have sacrificed previously are all worth the price.. and i always believe with this... ( IF U SOW & U WILL REAP ONE DAY )

Just received a very good news from my best friend and i am happy that her dream came true... thank God.. what she had wished all the while and it came true today!!CONGRATS STEF!!!!! grab the opportunity... its only once in a life time... hahaha... really happy for u...

When being informed that the Epidemiology paper is postponed... all of us are equally happy.. i cant imagine how am i going to sit for the test without any preparations..and the BEST thing of all is.... i am going back HOME tomorrow.. i really cant wait.. and i miss my bed so much...
hahaha... but of course family comes first laa.. haha..

must really ENJOY myself throughout the break... i need to recharge after so much of study and sacrifices....

HAPPY HOLIDAY!!! ENJOY WHILE U CAN.... take care.... and good night... :)

Happy Mooncake Festival...

2009-10-03T08:25:00.000-07:00

1 more week for me to prepare for my First ever exam in degree course.. having different kind of feelings at different moments.. Stress when thinking about the loads of memorising stuffs to be stored in my tiny brain.. Happy when i have accomplished my target of the day.. Regret when spending too much time on leisure... relax when come to sleeping time.. and nervous when i found out that i can't understand what i am studying... haha.. our mood really alters according to situation... and many times affected by the environment...

Its mooncake festival today...but din get to celebrate..maybe tomorrow when Huiping came back from Penang.. but today just wish each other among friends...everyone instead, gathered at study area.. spend time studying...

I am going back home after my CA for a week.. but this time is a little unusual whereby my 3 friends following me back home.. and we are gonna shop like crazy... haha.. i will be the tourist guide by then.. hopefully i wont lost in KL.. i cant wait to go home... Of course.. i wish to meet up with my high school friends... Stef!!!! spare some time with me!!! haha...

listening to HUAN ZHU GE GE songs now.. they are really old songs but these songs suddenly felt like listening to them.. haha...

Spend some time in a day for ourself its really relaxing... after so much of studying.. of course there is a need for me to relax.. i can't be studying studying and studying all the day.. i will be going crazy if this keeps going on for 5 years...

i just keep praying hard that i will pass all the exams and be a great doctor in 5 years time... i need to really change 1 thing that is always in me.. i hope i wont be as blur as now after 5 years.. i am gonna be in trouble for sure.. someone can pls tell me how to be more alert and smart?? i just cant myself of being so BLUR sometimes.... first i lost in Hospital last month and yesterday.. i overshot my sitting place in Study Area after i came back from washroom.. sweat man...

GOOD LUCK everyone!!! hopefully everyone can pass this time.... ALL THE BEST!!!!

Emo...

2009-09-16T22:13:00.000-07:00

Emo-ing seldom exists in my world but somehow these few days i felt so not happy internally.. another word frustration.. what's wrong with me? i wonder why? but i still can't figure it out why...

Probably the stress keep pressing on me.. with so much things to study... not enough time for me to really cover everything...and Continous Assessment is coming soon.. things turned even worse when my mind is not really focusing when studying.. millions of things strucked my head.. and my mind would diverse to somewhere really far...until when i stare at the clock.. its already half an hour gone... sigh.. i pray for extra hours...

Kimberly is in UK now.. i wonder how often we would actually contact each other.. just a very sincere word from me.. Kim, take care.. we will miss u.. haha.. see u when u r back...

Raya holiday is coming but i m not going back this time.. gonna really make full use of my holidays here.. was actually planned to go for a camp.. but i changed my mind.. feeling so not well these few days... went to see doctor again n he prescribed me another set of anti-biotic.. the funny part is the medicine named Avex.. hahaha.. a friend of mine...

now i understand life being a medical student.. one really needs determination, hardwork and sacrifices in order to success.. but generally.. life is just like that... not as smooth as we traverse... but full of winding roads... choice is in our hand.. we ourselves make our world more interesting and create our own history... i sound so emo.. haha..

ok.. time to get back to study.. i will stop emo-ing..

gambatte to me.. :)

09.09.09

2009-09-09T08:41:00.002-07:00

Its Wed today and what is so special about today? nothing for me but is my BEST FRIEND- Kimberly's birthday.. its her 18th bday... i remembered she told me before she wants to get married on 09.09.xx.. lol.... i wont forget about what u have said kim... hahaha...

i travelled back to PJ on last Friday.. reached home around 10pm and went to Kim's hse at 11pm.. stayed over night at her place and slept around 4am.. woke up at 8am on Sat's morning... and i returned back to home.. too much things to be done.. and i din get to sleep..

after i got everything done.. i planned to sleep as long as i can.. but kesian me.. less than 1 hour of sleeping and i was called by mom and dragged me out to alter my L size lab coat...i was so reluctant but i still went out.. what make things worse was my housemates dun see the difference when i proudly showed them my altered lab coat... lol... :S

went out for dinner with my mom, brother and sisters.. haha.. Happy.. but i miss my dad.. he was not around in Msia during my trip back.. din get to see him... :(

sunday morning.. left my home.. came back to AIMST again.. and went out for dinner to give Sing Ying a surprise early bdat celebration.. reached hostel around 12 midnite..

i am so so tired on monday... and not really feeling well again... Kim sent me a message on Tuesday asking about my health.. i was so curious why she asked and i dun even mention to her that i having flu and cough.. haha.. only she told me.. stef and pearl are sick also.. lol.. i know how i got this flu finally... hahaha...

but i am in the progress of recovering.. dun worry Kim.. and HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY again... i hope i will see u soon... :)

life is unpredictable sometimes

2009-09-01T06:24:00.000-07:00

Went to penang on sunday with my dear housemates, Yi Cheng and Chi Chun.. went SHOPPING!!! lol.. we took public transports there and luckly.. we had a really smooth journey.. we din't miss any buses.. and reached penang within 2 hours.. back to hostel around 11pm.. i had a great day with u guys :) HAPPY!!

But unfortunately.. on the second day... i fall sick.. got admitted to hospital..thanks to ping ping who willing to be my driver!!!haha.. mom was so worried.. and i know its my fault.. never take good care of myself...this was the first time being alone in hospital without family by my side.. i felt that i have grown up....and i am stronger.. haha... i got discharged today.. but still having fever... haiz...

But something really funny happened on me in hospital.. story begins: the nurse brought me to the ultrasound department where i have to do my scanning.. and she left me alone there after we have reached.. and after done scanning.. the doctor told me i can leave and back to my wad.. i was like omg.. which floor i am staying? i cant remember... and i have lost in hospital while finding my way back.. i went to the first floor and followed by second floor.. tried to search for some familiar sites... hahaha.. i found my wad finally and i was so blur that i actually over shot... i cant believe this to myself that i actually can lost in hospital... what about next time when i have to find my patients's wad? lol.. i hope i will be more alert next time...

i hope i can go to class tomorrow...missed 1 day class... i am afraid i can't catch up... :(

and most importantly.. i hope i can make it to go back home on Friday... i have to go back..and i wanna go back :S

Hectic Life

2009-08-28T02:51:00.000-07:00

BUSY will be the only best word to describe my current situation...
STRESS will be the most appropriate word to describe my feeeling...

but i tried my best to handle them...

i know i have chosen this path, and i shall not quit... stick to the fight, even when things seem worse...

To my fellow batchmate... take it as a challenge and life will be more interesting if we know how to enjoy life even during tough period....

think +
gambatte....

這就是愛嗎？

2009-08-22T22:48:00.000-07:00

這就是愛嗎？

詞：王雅君+林秋離
曲：林俊傑

你確定這就是愛嗎?
真的愛我嗎?
手牽著手漫步斜陽,
就當作浪漫,

兩個人眺望遠方,
以爲愛的晴朗,
當我回頭望,
卻
已淚濕了眼眶

當夕陽變成星光
當愛情換了方向
你一如過往對愛太緊張
但未來又會怎樣
未知的明天總讓我徬徨
誰給我力量

我不怕你愛不愛我只害怕你
以為愛我抓緊我
不算擁有
你總學不會放手

我不怕你不懂愛我只怕你
把習慣當作愛
你猜不透我要什麼

喔你猜不透我要什麼

I am here... Kedah...

2009-08-15T06:29:00.001-07:00

i am here for 5 days.. having orientations throughout this week... OMG.. we have 2oo of us.. gonna study together in a lecture hall.. with 1 lecturer teaching.. and i hardly imagine how well the classes will be carried on... just hoping that this won't affect us much...

worse still... everyone of us needs to take LAN subject which we din't take last year.. with such a stressful schedule.. which made me really afraid that i can't cope well... with almost 10 hours of class per day..i told myself to be stronger everyday.. and i just pray hard...

it's really hot here.. i just feel like aghhhh... but at night it's damn cold.. and i feel like aghhhh... the weather here is really different.. or maybe at home i hardly stepped out from my door step.. and now i have to walk 500m to reach my Medical building.. it's just like another end of our campus... i think i am getting darker soon.. or maybe thinner?

met all my great friends here.. and 9 of us are staying under one roof... it's great coz they are the only one that we can turn to whenever anyone of us having problems.. happy!!though no more climbing all the way to 5th floor this time... but i still miss my previous hostel..

i miss my hometown and everyone there.. when is my next trip going back home? well.. soon.. and i m looking forward to see him...my big brother... yay...

Monday... classes resume... and i wonder when will i get such a relax life again? probably when i have retired from my job? lol..

BACK TO AIMST

2009-08-10T07:10:00.000-07:00

how time flies huh.. i am in AIMST now.. i kind of like can't accept the fact sometimes.. why? anyone can tell me why time flies without us knowing? i hate this kind of feeling.. but during exams..we are hoping that time could fly faster... couting down each and everyday...

i am so tired today.. woke up at around 4 and travelled all the way to AIMST and busy unpacking..settled everything around 9pm.. and little did i know.. i have brought too many stuffs here...luckly can fit into my dad's pajero.. i shall not complaining so much..my dad shall be the one, at his middle age,driving 10 hours of journey just for me.. but without a word of complaints..and my mummy too..guiding me this blur daughter all the times.. thanks to daddy and mummy!!! love ya always.. i just hope that everything will be fine at home without me.. i wonder will they miss me?without this kakak to keep the house clean,guiding them with studies,and my food.. but i am sure gonna miss them... and not forgetting my bathroom.. i miss u so much.. i am stucked in this 16 squares tiles again whenever i am bathing with half covered door.. but i know i need to be grateful.. for who i am and i what am i doing now.. i know.. i will try my very best.. not to dissapoint everyone that loves me... hehe..

i am so alone today... living alone in this hostel tonight.. i hope everything is fine and i won't suffer from imsomnia tonight though i seldom.. hope that i wont suffer from home sick.. i am a big gal now.. i need to be strong and brave... yeah.. i can do it!

seeing so many medic students registered today somehow made me few a little nervous and worried..tomorrow will be our first day of orientation.. and here is my new life... a new beginning and a new page of life...

Inspiration

2009-08-04T21:11:00.000-07:00

When things go wrong, as they sometimes will,

When the road you are trudging seems all uphill,

When the funds are low and the debts are high,

And you want to smile, but you have to sigh,

When care is pressing you down a bit,

Rest if u must, but don’t you quit,

Life is queer with its twists and turns.

As everyone of us sometimes learnt

And many a failure turns about.

When he might have won had he stuck it out.

Don’t give up though the pace seems slow,

You may succeed with another blow,

Success is failure turned inside out,

The silver tint of the clouds of doubts,

And you never can tell how close you are,

It maybe near when it seems so far,

So stick to the fight when you are hardest hit,

It’s when things seem worse, that you must not quit.

Happy!!!

2009-08-04T21:09:00.000-07:00

It’s drizzling out there and I love it… listening to my favourite music.. with my favourite coffee latte and French toast.. I feel so contented with my life now.. little stress, happiness finds me everyday and I just love staying at home..doing what I like and what I want..

I baked brownies for the first time on Sunday.. Well, with my Sifu guiding me.. who is my Sifu? My sister… gave some to my aunty Catherine though it’s not really successful but just let her taste my first ever brownies.. she thought we added almond nuts but we did not cause could not manage to buy, Bake with Yen is closed on Sunday… what she ate was actually the crust!! The part that almost hangus!! That’s why it is crispy like almond… hahaha..so funny.. but happy cause she praised me and thanked me for my kindness… this is what made me happy on Sunday…

Monday..brought my sister to SS2 night market after promising her for so long and I guess I shall grant her wish before I go back to study.. haha… mom doesn’t like night market.. she will never brought us there…I went to Bread Story.. the place I worked last time..i miss the breads there honestly..i wish to open my own bakery after I retired.. but that is a bit too far… haha.. I am happy again on Monday..seeing people happy somehow made me happy…

Tuesday, had dinner with my 2 best friends.. Kim Kim and Stef.. we gave stef an early birthday surprise.. it was totally out of her expectation… haha.. I won this time cause it’s hard to surprise this little smart gal…happy again on Tuesday.. I know 3 of us are going to be far apart to each other.. feel sad whenever thinking about this, but just tried not to think… but no matter what happened to us, we will just turn to each other and seek help… i know how lucky I am.. and I treasure our friendship as well…

This week its gonna be buzy.. busy packing.. though I felt so reluctant to pack.. busy meet up with my friends…. And buzy spending time with my dearest family..

Life is just like that.. we need to move on.. don’t grieve over the passed.. but just keep looking forward.. happiness don’t seem to be with us always,so just treasure every moments when we are happy..we learnt from lessons, learnt to be a tougher person..people around us care for us, why not we, love ourselves before we love others? i love peace and I hate arguments…

Be brave enough to spread kindness.. you will find that you are happy when seeing people laughing… it’s all up to you to decide, sad or happy? I will choose to be happy… :D as I always do…

it's my mistake, i can't blame anyone

2009-07-27T09:17:00.000-07:00

I went for driving test today… Registered and waited for my turn, number 56.. Sitting next to me was a gal and she started to approach me.. She was reading some lecture notes- Biochemistry..i felt a little curious..so I asked her which course she is taking and she said medic.. the first impression she gave to me was she is a pretty nice gal.

My heart was pumping so fast when I just got into the car… really nervous and I did some stupid mistakes again.. but this time was really memalukan .. so many people looking at me doing such a stupid act.. I opened the car BOOT again..I repeated twice somemore coz I dun believe that was the wrong “button” to adjust.. i forgotten how to adjust my seat! OMG.. I can’t believe to myself, so blur, my mine was totally blank at that moment.. luckily a guy came and helped me.. calmed me down and told me what to do step by step..good news was I did everything smoothly during the test, and I have PASSED.. haha.. thank GOD.. I can drive finally… yay… lalala…

I went to the counter immediately, I want to proceed the payment to get my P license asap.. when I opened my purse, wanna pay RM70 but I couldn’t find the money.. I brought out RM 150 but left RM50 in the purse… what happened? I felt scared and worried.. called my mom… and she asked me whether I took out the money this morning or did I leave my bag somewhere this morning…

Memory flashback, I remembered that I went to toilet while waiting for my turn, leaving my bag and everything to the gal I talked with, who I have just met for less than 30 minutes… I was so innocent that everyone in the world can be trusted.. and I learnt a lesson. Don’t judge a book by looking at it’s cover. I was so wrong… how could I leave my bag with all the important stuffs to her? Told my mom, Of course, kena lectured by mom again… the bag was all the time with me except for that few minutes when I was in the toilet.. i can’t 100% saying she took the money, I have no prove but just suspecting.. I went home, searched for the money, thinking maybe I blur again, but can’t find the money at home too.. haiz.. speechless la..

I guess I have bought a lesson with RM 100 today.. at least I know how to be alert next time.. don’t ever trust anyone especially those who we have just known.. mom was right anyway.. she knows I am careless with money and she actually nagged a lot to me previously but I just don’t listen.. haiz..

Tomorrow going KL with stef.. I planned to shop but now I have to punish myself… no more shopping tomorrow, just window shopping… sad la..

It’s my mistake, can’t blame anyone for it… :S

3 more weeks

2009-07-17T07:25:00.001-07:00

Left only 24 days.. and I am leaving home to AIMST.. back to Kedah…time really flies… I wish that these 24 days will undergo ‘Nuclear Fission’ and give me more and more holidays…lol.. I know I am crapping again… but there is nothing bad to go back AIMST actually… I get to study again after so long period never studied.. I hope my brain still functioning and I need some grease too…gonna see all my dear friends again… get back to our usual systematic life… and the Jaya Catering, hopefully we would have much nicer food to eat this time… and our so called Air- Asia—Madura.. I wish that more varieties available there for us…

There are so many stuffs for me to do before going back to AIMST on 10th of August.. I shall start planning now..a lot of things to buy.. I need to pack and I hope I will have less stuffs to bring this time… I have learnt a lesson… must be like Mr Bean… don’t bring unnecessary stuffs this time… or else.. I would suffer from back pain again…

Oh regarding my driving lesson… I will be having test on 27th of July.. I am improving.. so happy that I can finally naik Bukit… thanks to Junyang!!! I really learnt a lot of tips from u and my other friends, not forgetting my dad too.. he let me pressed and released clutch,break and accelerator without car moving… lol.. i just need some luck this time.. should have no problem then.. hope I can get the license at least a week before I get back to Kedah… so that I can drive… haha…

What makes me sad is I can’t meet my KoKo.. he will only arrived home on 15th of July… it’s just after few days I am in Kedah.. but never mind… I will still meet him 1 day…
I just went to OneU with Nicole yesterday… we both really can talk a lot… from McD to Otak-Otak’s place to bench… spent whole day there… get to shop also.. met a friend from AIMST too...

Feeling so unwell these few days… what happened to our Earth? The air is so polluted… wind… can u pls bring away haze? And if can pls bring along AH1N1 also… bring them to moon…my throat and lips are so dry… felt so cold and so warm in my body…

Oh ya… more stories about my teaching experience..i will always face transport problem to school…there was once, my mom couldn’t pick me up from home.. I have no choice but to take a cab to school… first time in my life I am alone on the taxi..so independent!! Haha.. but not as fortunate, on the second day, there is no taxis for me.. I have no choice, finally seek help from next door auntie Catherine… guess what… I followed a school van to school with her kid..haha… it’s a bit awkward but I have no choice…

Alright, I wanna expressed my thoughts here about my life being a teacher… well… it’s really nice experience especially during the class.. Interaction with those little kids somehow make me feel happy.. just dun know why I would feel warm with them.. and I hardly get angry, if yes also fake one la.. just wanna scare them… haha.. they are too noisy and I have to control the class..coz there were a few times next class teacher came in and helped me to scold them.. that’s not really nice… I would say I had tried my best to make them understand me.. I acted like an operator.. before I started my explanation, I will ask the student, what language he usually speak at home… haha… coz I believe they will understand me better and I dun waste my energy talking… I am expecting answers like Mandarin or English.. but 1 boy told me Cantonese… speechless and I don’t know how to react…hahaha…

I had music class with them too.. I brought them to music room… and sang songs..i can still remember well and I sing along with them.. haha.. so nice la…memory flashback again…
I would have difficulty whenever come to art period.. I can’t really draw… and this really make me laugh at my own drawing.. the kids would comment on my drawing… 1 boy said my fish like dead fish.. and another said my trees like kena bom… which sound a bit true.. they were really honest… hahaha…

Kids!! They really incredible la… although the work is heavy and not easy.. but I kinda enjoying it.. they can make me laugh even when I marking their books.. really…. But of course there is some problematic kids that really need more attention.. but I don’t have much time in the class.. I brought him to the staff room and make him do his work… I din scold him but just make him understand that he needs to improve himself….hopefully he would remember my words… but I know he is a smart kid.. just that he don’t get much attention from home…

Kids love games and competitions… I found a very best way to keep them silent and sit at their own place.. it’s really tough previously.. they will listen to my words but just for a few seconds..so, I gave them quiz.. with marks given… groups that are silent and obedient would get 1 mark… and at the end of the day.. they winner’s group will be awarded with lollipop… haha.. and this is really effective… it’s so fun to play with them… hahaha…

Yesterday, when I was hanging clothes.. met my auntie Catherine.. she told me her boy said I am a really nice teacher… even better than his form teacher… lol.. I was really happy to get the feedback from the student… haha…

I love my job and i love what I am doing… :)

Good Afternoon Miss Khoo...

2009-07-07T20:30:00.000-07:00

i am working for this 3 days.. but kind of special coz this is the first time i have been assigned to teach afternoon session and i am replacing a form teacher who went for course.. i know this is not gonna be easy because they are really small little kids.. only standard 2... he told me they are like monkey..need to know how to handle them professionally..haha..

Before i entered, they had assembly as usual.. when come to singing patriotic songs-- Negaraku they really patriotic... wow... i am so impresed.. haha... unlike us last time in secondary time, we would rather listen to the songs..

Good aftenoon Miss Khoo... they greeted me.. so bersemangat!! haha.. but i remember i cant be too soft or else i would suffer for the rest of the days.. i shut off my 'laughing nerve' temporarily and its hard coz they are too cute and they really can make u smile.... but finally.. i did laugh coz really beh tahan d.. haiz.. really sap pai... their voice really loud and high pitch.. i cant win them seriously.. i called out one boy.. let him be my microfon.. lol.. but just for a few words... lol...

today is the last day of teaching them.. and in fact.. i am in school now.. came earlier to mark all the books.. really a lot.. i used 3 hours to finish marking... and i am going for lunch now...

Doubts

2009-07-02T23:28:00.000-07:00

Oh gosh… I feel so bad…my sister as the organizer.. Wanted me to be her singing competition judge on this coming Monday at DU, 2 pm..and I said yes to her yesterday by accepting a Mentos sweet from her. thinking that since I am free and I shall do my part as a senior of this Chinese Society Club…BUT… so coincidently.. I have just received a call from school.. headmaster telling me that I have to attend class on next Monday till Wednesday..worse still… its afternoon session… and its hard for me to reject this task…so for now.. I am trying hard to find substitution.. hopefully someone could lend me a hand this time..my sister sure gonna be angry with me laaa..or shall I tell headmaster I cant work for this 3 days? What shall I do? I requested to work for only Tues and Wed but she said cannot… what shall I do?? I hate people making empty promises but I am like making empty promises to my sister now… haiz…

Mom is buying me a laptop… but that isn’t the one I like honestly.. I hoping for a white laptop from Dell.. but I guess she already ordered a black Hp laptop for me… shall I object? Or just be gud gal.. accepting her offer coz I believe parents should have made the right choice for me..but but…. I still… longing for a white color ones… what shall I do? Stand up and tell them? It’s appearance does matter? Or the quality that counts?

Daddy found out that my phone number is actually a Sabah line and not KL line after checking from his expensive phone bill… shocked him… its even more expensive than calling overseas… he wants me to change to other line…but which line shall I change to? Mom wants me to change to Digi.. but I would still prefer Maxis line… which is better?

There is always a big question mark in my head…I want to clear it off!!! I really hope to dig out it’s answer asap… its been a long time this doubt popped out from me.. but still.. answer remains unrevealed.. i know time would tell me the answer… but when?! I shall just wait and wait… or shall I just give up waiting.. which is the better way? What’s wrong with me today? I don’t know.. must be thinking too much…

Uncle just came to visit me at home.. he brought me with lunch… omg.. my favourite squid.. yay… thanks a lot ‘dua gu’ ! I appreciate your kindness… :p

It's Friday again...

2009-06-26T08:37:00.001-07:00

I woke up crying today.. I had a nightmare.. few weeks ago, a friend of mine met with an accident on the way to my place to fetch me…but luckly, it was just a minor accident. She banged the concrete wall ( road partition). This is real…

In my dream… this incident repeated.. but the story continues.. because the wall she banged belongs to the government, police couldn’t take this easily and they said according to the law, she has to take this responsibility and has to be sentenced to jail for a year… she can’t enter degree course with us.. This made me so guilty and sad… but come to think of it now… this is really such a stupid dream that did not make sense ... and it's a bit funny i think...

I entered my sister’s class yesterday... Once I entered, students instead of greeting me, they can’t stop from laughing… I wanted to pretend to be serious at first, but burst out laughing also… i just can’t imagine teaching my own sister infront of the class.. hahaha…

When I was teaching in 3F class.. a boy nose bleed.. i was not as nervous like last time.. Helped him to cool down his forehead and let him drink more water… happy that I manage to help him.. :P

Not working today... met up with Sin Yee, shopping and had lunch with her..knowing her for more than 10 years and its really nice to update each other and catch up with her latest news…

It’s Friday again… and July is coming.. time really flies..i am gonna leave home to further studies soon.. at the same time brother is coming back.. yay!! Looking forward to seeing my koko again… :)

Back To School

2009-06-23T10:02:00.000-07:00

Woke up at 6am this morning. So tired but I have no choice.. I got to wake up and go to school today… dressed like a teacher and followed my sister to school.. hahaha…

Something funny happened today..they had this BM story telling competition.. As usual, students tend to get bored after an hour.. they started to make noise and moved around.. their favourite place will be TOILET at this moment.. so of course.. these smart children would definately target a kind and young teacher like me to ask for permission to go to toilet. :p I gave in.. allowed the first few to go, thinking that they probably cannot TAHAN anymore.. but the students approaching me were getting more.. some teachers even looked at me with their serious expression.. so I told myself not to allow them to leave the hall anymore.. then, the next student came, I was about to say NO.. but he opened up his palm and showed me a tooth which has just ‘fallen out’ from his mouth... I burst out laughing and quickly let him go to toilet… little kids are just to cute sometimes..

I entered 3G class today AGAIN.. this is the most difficult class to control among the classes that I have entered before…students are just too naughty, making noise and don’t like to study… I had tried my best to control the class but still…I failed… they just don’t understand me…haiz.. but I do hope they will be more obedient and listen to me next time if I get to enter this class again…

H1N1 is getting more serious in the world…more cases are reported each day.. more deaths record in the world…it spreads faster than I could imagine.. anyone can get it if just a bit unlucky..Even SMKDU is one of the schools that under quarantined… this is totally out of my expectation.. my sister still take it easily saying our school has became famous by this way… and if there is second case, she would get holidays… my dear friends.. please do take care of yourself!! J Eat more fruits and drink more water… your health is at risk!!! Haha..

I working for 4 days this week… the job is not as tiring compared to Secret recipe… and with higher pay also… I am happy!!! Haha..

Read This...

2009-06-21T22:28:00.000-07:00

印度的密教经典－－古老的祝福

有许许多多人，也许你已经淡忘了，如果仍然在你的心里，他们也一样会得到幸运。
我不会给你钱，因为我没有。
给你生活的忠告:多吃些粗粮.给别人比他们自己期许的更多，并且用心去做熟记你喜欢的诗歌不要轻信你听到的每件事，不要花光你的所有，不要想睡多久就睡多久。
无论何时说“我爱你”，请真心实意。
无论何时说“对不起”，请看着对方的眼睛。
相信一见钟情。永远不要忽视别人的梦想。
深情热烈地爱，也许你会受伤，但这是使人生完整的唯一方法。
用一种明确的方法解决争议，不要冒犯。永远不要以貌取人。
慢慢地说，但要迅速地想。当别人问你不想回答的问题时，笑着说“你为什么想知道？”记住那些敢于承担最大风险的人才能得到最深的爱和最大的成就。
给妈妈打电话。如果不行，至少在心里想着她。
当别人打喷嚏时，说一声“菩萨保佑”。
如果你失败了，千万不要忘记汲取教训。
记住三个“尊”：尊重你自己；尊重别人；保持尊严，对自己的行为负责。
不要让小小的争端损毁了一段伟大的友谊。无论何时你发现自己做错了，竭尽所能去弥补。
动作要快！无论什么时候打电话，摘起话筒的时候请微笑，因为对方能感觉到！
找一个你爱聊的人结婚，因为当年龄大了以后，你会发觉喜欢聊天是一个人最大的优点。
找点时间，单独呆会儿。
欣然接收改变，但是不要摒弃你的个人理念。
记住，沉默是金。多看点书，少看点电视。过一种高尚而诚实的生活。
当你年老时回想起过去，你就能再一次享受人生。
相信上帝，但是别忘了锁门。家庭的融洽氛围是难能可贵的。
尽你的全力让家平顺和谐。当你和你亲近的人吵嘴的时候，试着就事论事，不要扯出那些陈芝麻，烂谷子的事。不要摆脱不了昨天。多注意言下之意。
和别人分享你的知识，那才是永恒之道！
善待我们的地球。不要愚弄自然母亲。
忙自己该做的事。
不要相信接吻时从不闭眼的伴侣。
每年至少去一个你从没去过的地方。
如果你赚了很多钱，在活着的时候多行善事。这是你能得到的最好回报。
记住有时候，不是最好的收获也是一种好运。深刻理解所有的规则，合理地更新他们。
记住：最好的关系存在于对别人的爱胜于对别人的索求之上。
回头看看你发誓取得的目标，然后评判你到底有多成功。
无论是烹调还是爱情，都用百分之百的负责态度对待，但是不要期求太多的回报。　

PS: i received this from my cousin.. found it really meaningful and i just want to share this with everyone who bumped to my blog... :) GooD LuCK guys for what u are going through now.... Be strong and don't give up easily...trust urself and believe to miracle...

My Future? How far could i imagine?

2009-06-19T01:55:00.000-07:00

i went to Puay Chai with my mom today to collect wee wee 's report card...and guess what.. i re-registered to be the part time teacher there again.. haha... kinda happy :) some of my studants saw me.. and i was a little surprise when they approached and called me teacher Khoo in chinese.. haha.. means i have a place in their heart.. :p though i have only worked there for a short while in April... one of the students name Jeremy was so surprise seeing me again.. and guess what he has asked me... hey teacher,u came to collect report card for your child? lol.. i don't mind and just keep smiling...at least he is honest to me.. haha.. Kids are just too pure and this is why i love kids...They won't harm us....

i have always love teaching... partly because i love children... i still remember my ambition was to be a teacher 10 years back... and it slowly changed to lecturer when i grown older...but still... which field suits me most? i don't know but 1 thing for sure is don't involve in IT.. Honestly i having difficult time in choosing the courses previously...All the worries hit me.. maybe because i am lack of confident...i heard of so many opinions and comments from people.. making me even more confused.. i took 3 months to consider... and i have finally made up my mind..i know i have chosen this field and it's never an easy road.. it's all about hard work and commitment.. but i know.. my desire to help patients will be my main motivation all the time..:) and i am looking forward for the course to start...

But no one will know how is their future path going to be..Unlike KDU's advertistments.." Turn right to your future" haha... it's all about our determination and will... some might ended up with other job in future..will i be a paediatric lecturer 10 years later?? haha... i don't know.. it might be.. and it might not be... but there is still HOPE always... just try our BEST everytime...

Father's day is coming soon.. i have some plans with my sisters.. i do hope my dad would enjoy his day and the surprise we arranged for him... it's worth to celebrate cause he is my wonderful dad... haha... looking forward to this Sunday...

having driving lesson at 3pm on tomorrow.. hopefully there is improvement sign... lol...

Chia Wen has got a blog? lol...

2009-06-17T09:28:00.000-07:00

hahaha...i can't stop myself from laughing.. i have blog!!! haha..i went to Stef's house today.. the thought of having blog suddenly came to my mind.... i think is because too many of my friends are blogging now.. eventually i got influence by them..even kids blog today.. and surprisingly.. who created this blog for me? haha.. its christine.. stef's 12 years old sis... thanks ying... haha... but seriously i have another reason.. i have written my own diary since small.. i brought all my diaries all the way to AIMST and all the way back after finishing my foundation..found it quite troublesome... i have no where to keep them as i am afraid my sis would dig out one day and read them... lol..

i met up with my close high school friends today... was really nice...we really got lots of things to update each other...Ki jun, pearl, kim and Stef...i came back around 9 pm... hanging out with them really made me comfortable.. and i am happy.. pearl is unhappy with her part time job... made me thought of the time i worked in Secret Recipe.. just like nightmare.. but i learnt a lot there actually.. i learnt to be tougher,smarter n less blur...

oh ya.. i went to my high school today!! i always wanted to make a trip back to SMKDU but i couldn't make it.. but today.. Ki Jun fetched us there!!! wow.. my dream came true.. haha.. the canteen still the same.. the atmosphere and the food still smell exactly the same.. some memories traced back... omg.. life in secondary school was so systematic.. unlike now.. i wake up without using alarm.. hahaha...

we went to Tropicana City.. thinking to meet up with pearl.. and also wanted to stay away from hot sun..but she has left.. but nvm.. we spent the rest of the time in Borders..read some books.. 1 inspiration book really attracted me.. PS: i love inspiration book a lot!! one of them is still on my mind now which i fooud it very meaningful... : Waste ur money & u have only wasted ur money...Waste ur time & u have lost part of ur life... i think is kinda true... :)

oh.. my mom just hired me!!! haha.. i will be my 2 sisters tuition teacher starting next week.. haha.. happy!! my salary= pocket money... wow..so nice..is 2 in 1.. just like mutualism interaction.. haha...

i am so worry about my driving test which is coming soon next month.. left 5 hours of pratice but i just couldn't do it properly.. especially for the Bukit.. i always go down the hill instead.. how nice if the test required us to do going down hill instead.. i will surely passed then... but anyways.. i will try my very BEST... i must pass no matter how... hopefully..

it's late.. tired after whole day outing today...good nite....