how time flies huh.. i am in AIMST now.. i kind of like can't accept the fact sometimes.. why? anyone can tell me why time flies without us knowing? i hate this kind of feeling.. but during exams..we are hoping that time could fly faster... couting down each and everyday...
i am so tired today.. woke up at around 4 and travelled all the way to AIMST and busy unpacking..settled everything around 9pm.. and little did i know.. i have brought too many stuffs here...luckly can fit into my dad's pajero.. i shall not complaining so much..my dad shall be the one, at his middle age,driving 10 hours of journey just for me.. but without a word of complaints..and my mummy too..guiding me this blur daughter all the times.. thanks to daddy and mummy!!! love ya always.. i just hope that everything will be fine at home without me.. i wonder will they miss me?without this kakak to keep the house clean,guiding them with studies,and my food.. but i am sure gonna miss them... and not forgetting my bathroom.. i miss u so much.. i am stucked in this 16 squares tiles again whenever i am bathing with half covered door.. but i know i need to be grateful.. for who i am and i what am i doing now.. i know.. i will try my very best.. not to dissapoint everyone that loves me... hehe..
i am so alone today... living alone in this hostel tonight.. i hope everything is fine and i won't suffer from imsomnia tonight though i seldom.. hope that i wont suffer from home sick.. i am a big gal now.. i need to be strong and brave... yeah.. i can do it!
seeing so many medic students registered today somehow made me few a little nervous and worried..tomorrow will be our first day of orientation.. and here is my new life... a new beginning and a new page of life...
Inspiration
When things go wrong, as they sometimes will,
When the road you are trudging seems all uphill,
When the funds are low and the debts are high,
And you want to smile, but you have to sigh,
When care is pressing you down a bit,
Rest if u must, but don’t you quit,
Life is queer with its twists and turns.
As everyone of us sometimes learnt
And many a failure turns about.
When he might have won had he stuck it out.
Don’t give up though the pace seems slow,
You may succeed with another blow,
Success is failure turned inside out,
The silver tint of the clouds of doubts,
And you never can tell how close you are,
It maybe near when it seems so far,
So stick to the fight when you are hardest hit,
It’s when things seem worse, that you must not quit.
When the road you are trudging seems all uphill,
When the funds are low and the debts are high,
And you want to smile, but you have to sigh,
When care is pressing you down a bit,
Rest if u must, but don’t you quit,
Life is queer with its twists and turns.
As everyone of us sometimes learnt
And many a failure turns about.
When he might have won had he stuck it out.
Don’t give up though the pace seems slow,
You may succeed with another blow,
Success is failure turned inside out,
The silver tint of the clouds of doubts,
And you never can tell how close you are,
It maybe near when it seems so far,
So stick to the fight when you are hardest hit,
It’s when things seem worse, that you must not quit.
Happy!!!
It’s drizzling out there and I love it… listening to my favourite music.. with my favourite coffee latte and French toast.. I feel so contented with my life now.. little stress, happiness finds me everyday and I just love staying at home..doing what I like and what I want..
I baked brownies for the first time on Sunday.. Well, with my Sifu guiding me.. who is my Sifu? My sister… gave some to my aunty Catherine though it’s not really successful but just let her taste my first ever brownies.. she thought we added almond nuts but we did not cause could not manage to buy, Bake with Yen is closed on Sunday… what she ate was actually the crust!! The part that almost hangus!! That’s why it is crispy like almond… hahaha..so funny.. but happy cause she praised me and thanked me for my kindness… this is what made me happy on Sunday…
Monday..brought my sister to SS2 night market after promising her for so long and I guess I shall grant her wish before I go back to study.. haha… mom doesn’t like night market.. she will never brought us there…I went to Bread Story.. the place I worked last time..i miss the breads there honestly..i wish to open my own bakery after I retired.. but that is a bit too far… haha.. I am happy again on Monday..seeing people happy somehow made me happy…
Tuesday, had dinner with my 2 best friends.. Kim Kim and Stef.. we gave stef an early birthday surprise.. it was totally out of her expectation… haha.. I won this time cause it’s hard to surprise this little smart gal…happy again on Tuesday.. I know 3 of us are going to be far apart to each other.. feel sad whenever thinking about this, but just tried not to think… but no matter what happened to us, we will just turn to each other and seek help… i know how lucky I am.. and I treasure our friendship as well…
This week its gonna be buzy.. busy packing.. though I felt so reluctant to pack.. busy meet up with my friends…. And buzy spending time with my dearest family..
Life is just like that.. we need to move on.. don’t grieve over the passed.. but just keep looking forward.. happiness don’t seem to be with us always,so just treasure every moments when we are happy..we learnt from lessons, learnt to be a tougher person..people around us care for us, why not we, love ourselves before we love others? i love peace and I hate arguments…
Be brave enough to spread kindness.. you will find that you are happy when seeing people laughing… it’s all up to you to decide, sad or happy? I will choose to be happy… :D as I always do…
I baked brownies for the first time on Sunday.. Well, with my Sifu guiding me.. who is my Sifu? My sister… gave some to my aunty Catherine though it’s not really successful but just let her taste my first ever brownies.. she thought we added almond nuts but we did not cause could not manage to buy, Bake with Yen is closed on Sunday… what she ate was actually the crust!! The part that almost hangus!! That’s why it is crispy like almond… hahaha..so funny.. but happy cause she praised me and thanked me for my kindness… this is what made me happy on Sunday…
Monday..brought my sister to SS2 night market after promising her for so long and I guess I shall grant her wish before I go back to study.. haha… mom doesn’t like night market.. she will never brought us there…I went to Bread Story.. the place I worked last time..i miss the breads there honestly..i wish to open my own bakery after I retired.. but that is a bit too far… haha.. I am happy again on Monday..seeing people happy somehow made me happy…
Tuesday, had dinner with my 2 best friends.. Kim Kim and Stef.. we gave stef an early birthday surprise.. it was totally out of her expectation… haha.. I won this time cause it’s hard to surprise this little smart gal…happy again on Tuesday.. I know 3 of us are going to be far apart to each other.. feel sad whenever thinking about this, but just tried not to think… but no matter what happened to us, we will just turn to each other and seek help… i know how lucky I am.. and I treasure our friendship as well…
This week its gonna be buzy.. busy packing.. though I felt so reluctant to pack.. busy meet up with my friends…. And buzy spending time with my dearest family..
Life is just like that.. we need to move on.. don’t grieve over the passed.. but just keep looking forward.. happiness don’t seem to be with us always,so just treasure every moments when we are happy..we learnt from lessons, learnt to be a tougher person..people around us care for us, why not we, love ourselves before we love others? i love peace and I hate arguments…
Be brave enough to spread kindness.. you will find that you are happy when seeing people laughing… it’s all up to you to decide, sad or happy? I will choose to be happy… :D as I always do…
it's my mistake, i can't blame anyone
I went for driving test today… Registered and waited for my turn, number 56.. Sitting next to me was a gal and she started to approach me.. She was reading some lecture notes- Biochemistry..i felt a little curious..so I asked her which course she is taking and she said medic.. the first impression she gave to me was she is a pretty nice gal.
My heart was pumping so fast when I just got into the car… really nervous and I did some stupid mistakes again.. but this time was really memalukan .. so many people looking at me doing such a stupid act.. I opened the car BOOT again..I repeated twice somemore coz I dun believe that was the wrong “button” to adjust.. i forgotten how to adjust my seat! OMG.. I can’t believe to myself, so blur, my mine was totally blank at that moment.. luckily a guy came and helped me.. calmed me down and told me what to do step by step..good news was I did everything smoothly during the test, and I have PASSED.. haha.. thank GOD.. I can drive finally… yay… lalala…
I went to the counter immediately, I want to proceed the payment to get my P license asap.. when I opened my purse, wanna pay RM70 but I couldn’t find the money.. I brought out RM 150 but left RM50 in the purse… what happened? I felt scared and worried.. called my mom… and she asked me whether I took out the money this morning or did I leave my bag somewhere this morning…
Memory flashback, I remembered that I went to toilet while waiting for my turn, leaving my bag and everything to the gal I talked with, who I have just met for less than 30 minutes… I was so innocent that everyone in the world can be trusted.. and I learnt a lesson. Don’t judge a book by looking at it’s cover. I was so wrong… how could I leave my bag with all the important stuffs to her? Told my mom, Of course, kena lectured by mom again… the bag was all the time with me except for that few minutes when I was in the toilet.. i can’t 100% saying she took the money, I have no prove but just suspecting.. I went home, searched for the money, thinking maybe I blur again, but can’t find the money at home too.. haiz.. speechless la..
I guess I have bought a lesson with RM 100 today.. at least I know how to be alert next time.. don’t ever trust anyone especially those who we have just known.. mom was right anyway.. she knows I am careless with money and she actually nagged a lot to me previously but I just don’t listen.. haiz..
Tomorrow going KL with stef.. I planned to shop but now I have to punish myself… no more shopping tomorrow, just window shopping… sad la..
It’s my mistake, can’t blame anyone for it… :S
My heart was pumping so fast when I just got into the car… really nervous and I did some stupid mistakes again.. but this time was really memalukan .. so many people looking at me doing such a stupid act.. I opened the car BOOT again..I repeated twice somemore coz I dun believe that was the wrong “button” to adjust.. i forgotten how to adjust my seat! OMG.. I can’t believe to myself, so blur, my mine was totally blank at that moment.. luckily a guy came and helped me.. calmed me down and told me what to do step by step..good news was I did everything smoothly during the test, and I have PASSED.. haha.. thank GOD.. I can drive finally… yay… lalala…
I went to the counter immediately, I want to proceed the payment to get my P license asap.. when I opened my purse, wanna pay RM70 but I couldn’t find the money.. I brought out RM 150 but left RM50 in the purse… what happened? I felt scared and worried.. called my mom… and she asked me whether I took out the money this morning or did I leave my bag somewhere this morning…
Memory flashback, I remembered that I went to toilet while waiting for my turn, leaving my bag and everything to the gal I talked with, who I have just met for less than 30 minutes… I was so innocent that everyone in the world can be trusted.. and I learnt a lesson. Don’t judge a book by looking at it’s cover. I was so wrong… how could I leave my bag with all the important stuffs to her? Told my mom, Of course, kena lectured by mom again… the bag was all the time with me except for that few minutes when I was in the toilet.. i can’t 100% saying she took the money, I have no prove but just suspecting.. I went home, searched for the money, thinking maybe I blur again, but can’t find the money at home too.. haiz.. speechless la..
I guess I have bought a lesson with RM 100 today.. at least I know how to be alert next time.. don’t ever trust anyone especially those who we have just known.. mom was right anyway.. she knows I am careless with money and she actually nagged a lot to me previously but I just don’t listen.. haiz..
Tomorrow going KL with stef.. I planned to shop but now I have to punish myself… no more shopping tomorrow, just window shopping… sad la..
It’s my mistake, can’t blame anyone for it… :S
3 more weeks
Left only 24 days.. and I am leaving home to AIMST.. back to Kedah…time really flies… I wish that these 24 days will undergo ‘Nuclear Fission’ and give me more and more holidays…lol.. I know I am crapping again… but there is nothing bad to go back AIMST actually… I get to study again after so long period never studied.. I hope my brain still functioning and I need some grease too…gonna see all my dear friends again… get back to our usual systematic life… and the Jaya Catering, hopefully we would have much nicer food to eat this time… and our so called Air- Asia—Madura.. I wish that more varieties available there for us…
There are so many stuffs for me to do before going back to AIMST on 10th of August.. I shall start planning now..a lot of things to buy.. I need to pack and I hope I will have less stuffs to bring this time… I have learnt a lesson… must be like Mr Bean… don’t bring unnecessary stuffs this time… or else.. I would suffer from back pain again…
Oh regarding my driving lesson… I will be having test on 27th of July.. I am improving.. so happy that I can finally naik Bukit… thanks to Junyang!!! I really learnt a lot of tips from u and my other friends, not forgetting my dad too.. he let me pressed and released clutch,break and accelerator without car moving… lol.. i just need some luck this time.. should have no problem then.. hope I can get the license at least a week before I get back to Kedah… so that I can drive… haha…
What makes me sad is I can’t meet my KoKo.. he will only arrived home on 15th of July… it’s just after few days I am in Kedah.. but never mind… I will still meet him 1 day…
I just went to OneU with Nicole yesterday… we both really can talk a lot… from McD to Otak-Otak’s place to bench… spent whole day there… get to shop also.. met a friend from AIMST too...
Feeling so unwell these few days… what happened to our Earth? The air is so polluted… wind… can u pls bring away haze? And if can pls bring along AH1N1 also… bring them to moon…my throat and lips are so dry… felt so cold and so warm in my body…
Oh ya… more stories about my teaching experience..i will always face transport problem to school…there was once, my mom couldn’t pick me up from home.. I have no choice but to take a cab to school… first time in my life I am alone on the taxi..so independent!! Haha.. but not as fortunate, on the second day, there is no taxis for me.. I have no choice, finally seek help from next door auntie Catherine… guess what… I followed a school van to school with her kid..haha… it’s a bit awkward but I have no choice…
Alright, I wanna expressed my thoughts here about my life being a teacher… well… it’s really nice experience especially during the class.. Interaction with those little kids somehow make me feel happy.. just dun know why I would feel warm with them.. and I hardly get angry, if yes also fake one la.. just wanna scare them… haha.. they are too noisy and I have to control the class..coz there were a few times next class teacher came in and helped me to scold them.. that’s not really nice… I would say I had tried my best to make them understand me.. I acted like an operator.. before I started my explanation, I will ask the student, what language he usually speak at home… haha… coz I believe they will understand me better and I dun waste my energy talking… I am expecting answers like Mandarin or English.. but 1 boy told me Cantonese… speechless and I don’t know how to react…hahaha…
I had music class with them too.. I brought them to music room… and sang songs..i can still remember well and I sing along with them.. haha.. so nice la…memory flashback again…
I would have difficulty whenever come to art period.. I can’t really draw… and this really make me laugh at my own drawing.. the kids would comment on my drawing… 1 boy said my fish like dead fish.. and another said my trees like kena bom… which sound a bit true.. they were really honest… hahaha…
Kids!! They really incredible la… although the work is heavy and not easy.. but I kinda enjoying it.. they can make me laugh even when I marking their books.. really…. But of course there is some problematic kids that really need more attention.. but I don’t have much time in the class.. I brought him to the staff room and make him do his work… I din scold him but just make him understand that he needs to improve himself….hopefully he would remember my words… but I know he is a smart kid.. just that he don’t get much attention from home…
Kids love games and competitions… I found a very best way to keep them silent and sit at their own place.. it’s really tough previously.. they will listen to my words but just for a few seconds..so, I gave them quiz.. with marks given… groups that are silent and obedient would get 1 mark… and at the end of the day.. they winner’s group will be awarded with lollipop… haha.. and this is really effective… it’s so fun to play with them… hahaha…
Yesterday, when I was hanging clothes.. met my auntie Catherine.. she told me her boy said I am a really nice teacher… even better than his form teacher… lol.. I was really happy to get the feedback from the student… haha…
I love my job and i love what I am doing… :)
There are so many stuffs for me to do before going back to AIMST on 10th of August.. I shall start planning now..a lot of things to buy.. I need to pack and I hope I will have less stuffs to bring this time… I have learnt a lesson… must be like Mr Bean… don’t bring unnecessary stuffs this time… or else.. I would suffer from back pain again…
Oh regarding my driving lesson… I will be having test on 27th of July.. I am improving.. so happy that I can finally naik Bukit… thanks to Junyang!!! I really learnt a lot of tips from u and my other friends, not forgetting my dad too.. he let me pressed and released clutch,break and accelerator without car moving… lol.. i just need some luck this time.. should have no problem then.. hope I can get the license at least a week before I get back to Kedah… so that I can drive… haha…
What makes me sad is I can’t meet my KoKo.. he will only arrived home on 15th of July… it’s just after few days I am in Kedah.. but never mind… I will still meet him 1 day…
I just went to OneU with Nicole yesterday… we both really can talk a lot… from McD to Otak-Otak’s place to bench… spent whole day there… get to shop also.. met a friend from AIMST too...
Feeling so unwell these few days… what happened to our Earth? The air is so polluted… wind… can u pls bring away haze? And if can pls bring along AH1N1 also… bring them to moon…my throat and lips are so dry… felt so cold and so warm in my body…
Oh ya… more stories about my teaching experience..i will always face transport problem to school…there was once, my mom couldn’t pick me up from home.. I have no choice but to take a cab to school… first time in my life I am alone on the taxi..so independent!! Haha.. but not as fortunate, on the second day, there is no taxis for me.. I have no choice, finally seek help from next door auntie Catherine… guess what… I followed a school van to school with her kid..haha… it’s a bit awkward but I have no choice…
Alright, I wanna expressed my thoughts here about my life being a teacher… well… it’s really nice experience especially during the class.. Interaction with those little kids somehow make me feel happy.. just dun know why I would feel warm with them.. and I hardly get angry, if yes also fake one la.. just wanna scare them… haha.. they are too noisy and I have to control the class..coz there were a few times next class teacher came in and helped me to scold them.. that’s not really nice… I would say I had tried my best to make them understand me.. I acted like an operator.. before I started my explanation, I will ask the student, what language he usually speak at home… haha… coz I believe they will understand me better and I dun waste my energy talking… I am expecting answers like Mandarin or English.. but 1 boy told me Cantonese… speechless and I don’t know how to react…hahaha…
I had music class with them too.. I brought them to music room… and sang songs..i can still remember well and I sing along with them.. haha.. so nice la…memory flashback again…
I would have difficulty whenever come to art period.. I can’t really draw… and this really make me laugh at my own drawing.. the kids would comment on my drawing… 1 boy said my fish like dead fish.. and another said my trees like kena bom… which sound a bit true.. they were really honest… hahaha…
Kids!! They really incredible la… although the work is heavy and not easy.. but I kinda enjoying it.. they can make me laugh even when I marking their books.. really…. But of course there is some problematic kids that really need more attention.. but I don’t have much time in the class.. I brought him to the staff room and make him do his work… I din scold him but just make him understand that he needs to improve himself….hopefully he would remember my words… but I know he is a smart kid.. just that he don’t get much attention from home…
Kids love games and competitions… I found a very best way to keep them silent and sit at their own place.. it’s really tough previously.. they will listen to my words but just for a few seconds..so, I gave them quiz.. with marks given… groups that are silent and obedient would get 1 mark… and at the end of the day.. they winner’s group will be awarded with lollipop… haha.. and this is really effective… it’s so fun to play with them… hahaha…
Yesterday, when I was hanging clothes.. met my auntie Catherine.. she told me her boy said I am a really nice teacher… even better than his form teacher… lol.. I was really happy to get the feedback from the student… haha…
I love my job and i love what I am doing… :)
Good Afternoon Miss Khoo...
i am working for this 3 days.. but kind of special coz this is the first time i have been assigned to teach afternoon session and i am replacing a form teacher who went for course.. i know this is not gonna be easy because they are really small little kids.. only standard 2... he told me they are like monkey..need to know how to handle them professionally..haha..
Before i entered, they had assembly as usual.. when come to singing patriotic songs-- Negaraku they really patriotic... wow... i am so impresed.. haha... unlike us last time in secondary time, we would rather listen to the songs..
Good aftenoon Miss Khoo... they greeted me.. so bersemangat!! haha.. but i remember i cant be too soft or else i would suffer for the rest of the days.. i shut off my 'laughing nerve' temporarily and its hard coz they are too cute and they really can make u smile.... but finally.. i did laugh coz really beh tahan d.. haiz.. really sap pai... their voice really loud and high pitch.. i cant win them seriously.. i called out one boy.. let him be my microfon.. lol.. but just for a few words... lol...
today is the last day of teaching them.. and in fact.. i am in school now.. came earlier to mark all the books.. really a lot.. i used 3 hours to finish marking... and i am going for lunch now...
Before i entered, they had assembly as usual.. when come to singing patriotic songs-- Negaraku they really patriotic... wow... i am so impresed.. haha... unlike us last time in secondary time, we would rather listen to the songs..
Good aftenoon Miss Khoo... they greeted me.. so bersemangat!! haha.. but i remember i cant be too soft or else i would suffer for the rest of the days.. i shut off my 'laughing nerve' temporarily and its hard coz they are too cute and they really can make u smile.... but finally.. i did laugh coz really beh tahan d.. haiz.. really sap pai... their voice really loud and high pitch.. i cant win them seriously.. i called out one boy.. let him be my microfon.. lol.. but just for a few words... lol...
today is the last day of teaching them.. and in fact.. i am in school now.. came earlier to mark all the books.. really a lot.. i used 3 hours to finish marking... and i am going for lunch now...
Doubts
Oh gosh… I feel so bad…my sister as the organizer.. Wanted me to be her singing competition judge on this coming Monday at DU, 2 pm..and I said yes to her yesterday by accepting a Mentos sweet from her. thinking that since I am free and I shall do my part as a senior of this Chinese Society Club…BUT… so coincidently.. I have just received a call from school.. headmaster telling me that I have to attend class on next Monday till Wednesday..worse still… its afternoon session… and its hard for me to reject this task…so for now.. I am trying hard to find substitution.. hopefully someone could lend me a hand this time..my sister sure gonna be angry with me laaa..or shall I tell headmaster I cant work for this 3 days? What shall I do? I requested to work for only Tues and Wed but she said cannot… what shall I do?? I hate people making empty promises but I am like making empty promises to my sister now… haiz…
Mom is buying me a laptop… but that isn’t the one I like honestly.. I hoping for a white laptop from Dell.. but I guess she already ordered a black Hp laptop for me… shall I object? Or just be gud gal.. accepting her offer coz I believe parents should have made the right choice for me..but but…. I still… longing for a white color ones… what shall I do? Stand up and tell them? It’s appearance does matter? Or the quality that counts?
Daddy found out that my phone number is actually a Sabah line and not KL line after checking from his expensive phone bill… shocked him… its even more expensive than calling overseas… he wants me to change to other line…but which line shall I change to? Mom wants me to change to Digi.. but I would still prefer Maxis line… which is better?
There is always a big question mark in my head…I want to clear it off!!! I really hope to dig out it’s answer asap… its been a long time this doubt popped out from me.. but still.. answer remains unrevealed.. i know time would tell me the answer… but when?! I shall just wait and wait… or shall I just give up waiting.. which is the better way? What’s wrong with me today? I don’t know.. must be thinking too much…
Uncle just came to visit me at home.. he brought me with lunch… omg.. my favourite squid.. yay… thanks a lot ‘dua gu’ ! I appreciate your kindness… :p
Mom is buying me a laptop… but that isn’t the one I like honestly.. I hoping for a white laptop from Dell.. but I guess she already ordered a black Hp laptop for me… shall I object? Or just be gud gal.. accepting her offer coz I believe parents should have made the right choice for me..but but…. I still… longing for a white color ones… what shall I do? Stand up and tell them? It’s appearance does matter? Or the quality that counts?
Daddy found out that my phone number is actually a Sabah line and not KL line after checking from his expensive phone bill… shocked him… its even more expensive than calling overseas… he wants me to change to other line…but which line shall I change to? Mom wants me to change to Digi.. but I would still prefer Maxis line… which is better?
There is always a big question mark in my head…I want to clear it off!!! I really hope to dig out it’s answer asap… its been a long time this doubt popped out from me.. but still.. answer remains unrevealed.. i know time would tell me the answer… but when?! I shall just wait and wait… or shall I just give up waiting.. which is the better way? What’s wrong with me today? I don’t know.. must be thinking too much…
Uncle just came to visit me at home.. he brought me with lunch… omg.. my favourite squid.. yay… thanks a lot ‘dua gu’ ! I appreciate your kindness… :p
