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my current health status : weak
my current state of mind : confused
my current mood to study : negative
my current mood to eat : no appetite
my current feeling : tired but not sleepy



what's on my mind?? i am so damn confused... what's wrong with me?
humans tend to be so weird at times... long for something but when the thing they desired came.. they tend to refuse... and when the thing has gone for life... they would regret......

every step, every move.. it counts... and so.. dun make decision simply.. think carefully.. act appropriately...

at least to find the truth that making u confused.... and i have found.. that's great isn't it.....

3 more days for me to have this honeymoon days..... and everything get started again...so do my engine... i need to restart it... pump in petrol and keep moving..... achieving my goals and my destination..... go go chia wen!!! i know i can do it.... nothing is gonna stop me... as the saying goes... NOTHING IS IMPOSSIBLE.........and evrything is POSSIBLE..........
hmm... yea... including a relationship while studying?? i wonder....

HAPPY NEW YEAR 2010

Oh oh oh.. i m back.. finally i got some fresh air to breath.. been so so stress while preparing for my exams n it finally came to a break.. before the next battle starts exactly 55days ltr... what a tiring course i have chosen... i would sometimes hesitate about my own capability.. would i manage to survive and passed all the obstacles within this 5 years? worries somehow strike me on n off.. i know.. i am just lack of confidence again.. i m just hoping for the BEST and at the sametime pray for a healthy body... fall sick again just a day before exam.. thanks a lot Caryn for accompanying me to hospital... :) i would remember ur Starbucks...

Semester 2 just started but assignment and lecture notes are already piled up.. was actually planned to go back this week since there are 5 days of holidays... but i changed my mind.. better stay here... going to Penang on tomorrow AGAIN... this would probably be the only destination i would go when i am in Kedah.... wanna make use for my holidays to rest, study,catch up with my taiwanese series and most importantly... write my new year resolutions.. as i always do...

wohoo.. i m listening to Hua Sha by Cindy n Jay Chau now.. replaying it for hours and i am still so in LOVE with it... nice song!! thanks to my good friend who shares the common taste.... thanks for sending me this song.. i love it.. :) i wonder u will visit my blog... hmm..

i would say gals are complicated creature.. even me myself whom i always thought as a simple gal, dun know what i want in my life... sometimes things seem to be so complicated n i am too afraid to make the next move.. too afraid to bear with it... we think differently.. not always in a logic ways but there are just so many tiny minor things that we gals actually think about, yet care about.... trust me... gals are never simple especially as we grown up... or probably... humans are never easy to handle.... anytime anywhere we might hurt someone without knowledge... with thorn words n rude acts.... cant we just be more simpler and lead a very very simple life? which i always hope i can....

i learnt from my pharmacology lecturer today... he told me : dun speak while u r angry... which i really agree with him.... we might prevent lots of unwanted incidents if we do follow this rule...

i am tired... accumulation from last week.. had a terrrible but unforgettable experience in my life... burning midnight oil together with Hsu Wern n Caryn.... sleepless nights lasted for 2 weeks...n i think its just a beginning of my life...so much of funny things happened in between... i wont forget the jokes me n caryn made while brushing teeth late in midnite.. and the YOGA i learnt from Hsu Wern to release our stress... there were so much fun in between though we were so stressed up... and i think this brought us closer.. and i m grateful :p

heres some random pictures i have after exams.... went Lebooss to celebrate n went to Tesco the next day....

OvERvIeW

Nothing much to blog about but just some observations and happenings in my life recently…

Some people are smart but some are hardworking

Some people are considerate but some are just so selfish

Some people are noisy but some are quiet

Some people are tolerate but some just dun willing to do so

Some people are annoying but some, we are just so LOVE to be with them

Some people dun reply our message but some are so willing to send us a sweet message

Some people study smart but some study hard

Some people dun understand us but some are just too understand us

So.. Which categories are you in?

People around me with different characters, different habits and with different point of views...we accept for who they are and try to compromise with them…
This is life.. not too long..yet..not too short.. its December.. and very soon 2010 is reaching.. and so fast.. I am 20 years old soon..but I am still behaving like 12 sometimes.. :p

A lot things happened this year..

i think i shall summarise all and let it be a memory of my life and my story... ^.^

January 09..

It's new year.. and this is the first time ever i celebrated New Year in AIMST..with Nicole and Penny.. went to cafeteria for supper n welcoming New Year around the clock tower in AIMST.. Celebrated JaCinta's bday as well on 19th by giving her a surprise with an album.. oh gosh.. look at my cute little fringe.. i will never cut it again!! haha..




February 09..

i still remember this was the busiest month of the year.. with 5 assignments all came together and at the same time Final was just around the corner..the most happening was our Bio Fair.. i really learnt a lot and it actually bridging up our friendship..i will never forgot how cooperative we were and its all worth the price.. went out for celebration after Bio Fair...thought of Joshua suddenly... who is now in MMU.. kinda miss him .. :S

March 09..

huhu!! this was the month that i was touched.. it was my FINAL and my BIrTHDay month..was really stress with my studies.. i know i gotta do well in order to enter my desired course.. DeAreSt Friends poured me with huge SuRpRiSe...i will never forget.. played hide and seek around the campus till 2am.. omg.. such a big babies we were! THANKS a lot for celebrating for me.. i appreciate it well.. :) not forgetting our GENTING trip after FINAL on 27th of March.. really had fun with u guys.. and this was the first time i entered outdoor themepark.. surprising huh..yup.. its true..

April 09..

came to the month where i was finally back to my home PJ.. for 4 months of holidays! the longest holiday i had ever.. and little did i know.. it passed silently fast.. i really made full use of this holiday... learnt driving, took part time job as primary teacher, tuition teacher at home, a little helper at home, a waitress at Secret Recipe, non-stop-meet -up with friends and stuffs... i had my BEST memory in Puay Chai.. and a terrible memory at Secret Recipe where i really learnt n became tougher...

and i guess i shall stop blogging.. to be continued next time when i am bored n got nothing to do..

life is short.. this is why i treasure every moment i having.. the people around me and the current life i having now.. i am so contented.... thanks to all my friends who really colored me life and i found myself quite Happy since ever i came to AIMST...

With the STRESS of course i carrying with myself most of the time in Degree.. but still.. i will continue to be cheerful and i believe in happy go lucky.. which i really know... i am so so lucky for what i am having now.. a warm and harmony family.. few BEST Gal Friends in PJay (Stef, Kim, Sin Yee, Peng Khuan, Ki Jun).. few in AIMST (HuiPing,Caryn, Penny n B3C, Clian).. and some really good Guy Friends around me.. u guys really helped me a lot whenever i am lost... a BIG thank you to u all.. REALLY... like what my lecturer once told me.. work in a TEAM and this is what i really do in Degree.. dun feel selfish n stingy when come to studies.. no points cause end up we will be the one who lost...

Making my final decision to enter Medic.. and i have yet to regret so far.. looking forward on the day i am graduating.. and my long long journey infront..

a typical Pisces.. a typical me... yet an unique me.. haha.. :p

gotta study now.. fighting for my future.. and i hope i will do well for my coming CA..

keep keep praying and i know success has got its price to be paid..

cheers... <3

Monday is coming..

me and Clian... my batchmate.. :)

Caryn!! big gal d.. Happy 19th Bday...

Kimberly, Stefanie and me.... BFF!!!

i am suppose to study my Mr Anatomy now.. but the urge to blog suddenly came to visit me.. and so my mind flies away and knocked the door of My StOrIeS... i am so so addicted to a song recently.. been listening to days for hours and i am still so loving it..

Been down for few days.. probably i am stress again.. got my results..well satisfactory except for Epidemiology.. my prediction was absolutely correct.. i failed in my paper.. quite proud to say that this is the first ever failure in exam.. and this is the feeling.. sad + moody + emo... i was totally down and mute for the whole day.. scary huh.. but this don't last long.. the chatter box of me resumed back after few hours.. haha.. and i am thinking positively.. will try my best for the coming CA.. i should'nt take this subject for granted again...

And the next exam is coming.. not planning to go back as exam is just after holidays.. gonna stay here and the nerdy me gonna study study and study..but i still miss my home.. maybe i will change my mind? i dun know.. but hopefully my parents are coming to visit me..

ohhh...i cant wait for the day--- 18th December... going to have buffet in Penang.. and i wanna shop shop shop.. and enjoy sun set by the sea.. haha.. and i just cant wait.... haha.. with my dearly friends.. celebrating Mandy's bday at the same time.. =D hopefully the plan is going to be smooth...

my dearly sweet noisy funny Caryn's bday just passed.. -16th Nov.. had a little surprise for her.. haha... hope she liked it...

and something really annoying me here... so many flies fly into my hostel unit.. i just cant stand them.. really annoying.. and there are 6 in my room.. trying to chase them out but its hard.. i think more are coming in instead.. haiyaya.. i need a electric chock racket...

tomorrow is monday again.. and so many weeks has passed so silently fast.. end of Nov is coming and this 2009 will be ended soon.... this is a fast year again... had lots n lots of memories crafted in my mind... and i m just so sentimental sometimes.. cant accept the fact that time really flies....

And at this moment.. i miss my 2 Besties.. where are u guys? Stef? Kim? doing fine? i wondering...

Having Anatomy Practical tomorrow... muscles of lower limb.. i wonder how many new muscles will be introducing to me again... OMG... i am going crazy with the muscles... i think they will appear in my dream soon... coz their names appear in my mind most of the time.. n i heard people saying the person that u always thinking about are going to appear in your dreams..haha.

just crapping...

okie.. 8 more minutes to reach monday.. people.. have a sweet sugar dream... good nite.. a new week, a new beginning and a new hope for me... :)

Updates...

i had my final paper yesterday.. well. i know i did badly for this Epidemiology paper and i am preparing for the worst...trying to think positively and i do hope i will passed this paper.. i just keep praying hard.. hope LUCK is by my side this time...anyway... i just wanna put this aside.. no points thinking about it and i shall just keep moving on.. learn from the lesson and try harder next time... yes.. Gammbatte to myself.. :)

yesterday was Cyean- my 'mummy' 's birthday... one of my good friends and housemates... we gave her a surprise... she will never thought that we gonna celebrate for her as everyone is so busy with studies and exams.. with 20 of us together celebrated for her and our really lovely handmade presents...... hahaha.. Cyean : stop saying thank you and i am really happy that u actually appreciate it well... i do hope u had a memorable day.. :) and i never thought that u would cry.... hahahaha... perhaps u were touched... haha.. but what i wanna tell u is... u r worth for us to celebrate for u.. :)

but honestly.. i was seriously tired... lack of sleeping due to my pack schedule...and luckly its Friday again... i took 4 hours of afternoon nap... and i got myself recharged.. and i am feeling good.. haha..

good day... and cheers :)

HOLIDAY!!!

I am really seriously exhausted.. endless assignments, reports and exams really made my life so busy n stress that would almost drive me crazy sometimes..but i always feel myself as the luckiest one...with so many caring good friends around me.. who always cheer me up when i am down with their courages and supports.. thanks C3B!!! and everyone..

When you see your effort being granted one day.. the feeling is so great and u would feel that what u have sacrificed previously are all worth the price.. and i always believe with this... ( IF U SOW & U WILL REAP ONE DAY )

Just received a very good news from my best friend and i am happy that her dream came true... thank God.. what she had wished all the while and it came true today!!CONGRATS STEF!!!!! grab the opportunity... its only once in a life time... hahaha... really happy for u...

When being informed that the Epidemiology paper is postponed... all of us are equally happy.. i cant imagine how am i going to sit for the test without any preparations..and the BEST thing of all is.... i am going back HOME tomorrow.. i really cant wait.. and i miss my bed so much...
hahaha... but of course family comes first laa.. haha..

must really ENJOY myself throughout the break... i need to recharge after so much of study and sacrifices....

HAPPY HOLIDAY!!! ENJOY WHILE U CAN.... take care.... and good night... :)

Happy Mooncake Festival...

1 more week for me to prepare for my First ever exam in degree course.. having different kind of feelings at different moments.. Stress when thinking about the loads of memorising stuffs to be stored in my tiny brain.. Happy when i have accomplished my target of the day.. Regret when spending too much time on leisure... relax when come to sleeping time.. and nervous when i found out that i can't understand what i am studying... haha.. our mood really alters according to situation... and many times affected by the environment...

Its mooncake festival today...but din get to celebrate..maybe tomorrow when Huiping came back from Penang.. but today just wish each other among friends...everyone instead, gathered at study area.. spend time studying...

I am going back home after my CA for a week.. but this time is a little unusual whereby my 3 friends following me back home.. and we are gonna shop like crazy... haha.. i will be the tourist guide by then.. hopefully i wont lost in KL.. i cant wait to go home... Of course.. i wish to meet up with my high school friends... Stef!!!! spare some time with me!!! haha...

listening to HUAN ZHU GE GE songs now.. they are really old songs but these songs suddenly felt like listening to them.. haha...

Spend some time in a day for ourself its really relaxing... after so much of studying.. of course there is a need for me to relax.. i can't be studying studying and studying all the day.. i will be going crazy if this keeps going on for 5 years...

i just keep praying hard that i will pass all the exams and be a great doctor in 5 years time... i need to really change 1 thing that is always in me.. i hope i wont be as blur as now after 5 years.. i am gonna be in trouble for sure.. someone can pls tell me how to be more alert and smart?? i just cant myself of being so BLUR sometimes.... first i lost in Hospital last month and yesterday.. i overshot my sitting place in Study Area after i came back from washroom.. sweat man...


GOOD LUCK everyone!!! hopefully everyone can pass this time.... ALL THE BEST!!!!