exam season

i crave for the life when i was a kid..
i crave for the food that i ate at home..
i want to go home....
i want to take a break....
FINAL is coming in 3 days time..
i hope i can go through this time..
thanks for your presence in my life..
u been guiding me from the first day we met...
i LOVE u...
Yi Cheng....

It's predicted.. so just let it be....

i feel not right.. tired? of what? of life? not really but just something happened recently making me more stress besides studies stress.. i don't know how to express over here but just a sudden urge of feel like blogging and burst out my feeling over here...

and i really learned.. i should have protected myself and don't be the peacemaker... trying to solve things out but ended up making things worse and i feel sad of it.... such a stupid act and i shall just stand aside let them be and be ignorant at the first place...

things maybe are not as serious that the girls thought.... it's mostly accumulation of misunderstandings and something it's gonna burst one day just like volcano.. we tried to be as tolerate as we can but people just don't see our tolerance and ask for more.. why???

everything has a limit though they said only sky is the limit.... sigh... what i have learned would be talk less and talk the right things at the right time.. sometimes it would be better if word left unspoken and not to kill another with sharp and torn words..

i just feel not right....

i will just tell myself now... think before i act... just like our recycle bin :THINK BEFORE YOU THROW"

Life is just like that.. i fall and i learned... i know i gotta be tough... journey is still long and bumpy.. hopefully i would be fine.... i just don't care anymore... Dissapointed might be my feeling right now.... characters of ones are hard to change and so i would just accept for who they are.. knowing them and keep a distance always would be the best for all...

another thing... GOSSIPS kill friendship... apply especially on girls... but they just LOVE gossiping....

i shall get back to my track.... study!

April is coming.. CA4 is near and not to mention about FINAL.....

i can't wait for holidays!!!!! that's still far i supposed... but it chills me down when i am stress...

and i think i feel better after blogging.... :)

CA3........

i have soooo much to blog..... but i have no time to blog... and i ended up letting my blog rot...... sigh....... good luck to myself....... and i m getting older in 2 more days....... say bye to teens n welcome to an Adult life.........am i ready? i dun think soooo.... haha...
wat m i saying??

must be studied till crazy.............. i cant stand already!! i wanna go back home!!!

counting down for CNY....

Hohoho.. i have just realised 18 days for me to get away from this paddy field.. hot n humid with bunch of irritating yet disgusting green bugs as my room visitors everyday.... creating scars on my arms n legs... :S

i miss my Grandma's place..after i made my last visit in June 09.. its really a small village i could say but at least no GREEN BUGS there...miss hanging out with cousins....miss playing badminton with Jun Yang.. chatting with Jeanne and crapping non-stop with Harrison... last but not least... my little cute Kai Xian...

How time flies huh.. CNY is coming in 20 days time... falls on Valentine's Day 14th of February...what a coincidence.. it might be a right day for people to propose to their love ones in their future in-laws place huh... haha...

Got back my epidemiology and physiology results.. thank God that i have passed both.. but i m still aiming for a better result.... at least i din fail my epi paper this time... i shudn just aim for pass i guess... that's too risky...

i would be having a short CNY trip back to home... coming back to aimst on 16th February... which means less ang pao this year.. haha..its ok... i don't mind...its worth to sacrifice for my studies...

Did some stupid n blur stuffs again today.. wanted to call Mandy but without realised.. i called to the next room Caryn Chow..another one.. i shouted "aghh" who off the light? while i was bathing.. Hsu Wern was there in another bathroom.. she said "no arr" and i found myself closed my eyes voluntarily due to the entering of facial foam..i am really speechless for my own.. hmm... i wish i could be more alert sometimes...

i baked cookies for my aunty in 2009..

My DaRliNg



i miss u DaD....

cOnFuSeD

my current health status : weak
my current state of mind : confused
my current mood to study : negative
my current mood to eat : no appetite
my current feeling : tired but not sleepy



what's on my mind?? i am so damn confused... what's wrong with me?
humans tend to be so weird at times... long for something but when the thing they desired came.. they tend to refuse... and when the thing has gone for life... they would regret......

every step, every move.. it counts... and so.. dun make decision simply.. think carefully.. act appropriately...

at least to find the truth that making u confused.... and i have found.. that's great isn't it.....

3 more days for me to have this honeymoon days..... and everything get started again...so do my engine... i need to restart it... pump in petrol and keep moving..... achieving my goals and my destination..... go go chia wen!!! i know i can do it.... nothing is gonna stop me... as the saying goes... NOTHING IS IMPOSSIBLE.........and evrything is POSSIBLE..........
hmm... yea... including a relationship while studying?? i wonder....

HAPPY NEW YEAR 2010

Oh oh oh.. i m back.. finally i got some fresh air to breath.. been so so stress while preparing for my exams n it finally came to a break.. before the next battle starts exactly 55days ltr... what a tiring course i have chosen... i would sometimes hesitate about my own capability.. would i manage to survive and passed all the obstacles within this 5 years? worries somehow strike me on n off.. i know.. i am just lack of confidence again.. i m just hoping for the BEST and at the sametime pray for a healthy body... fall sick again just a day before exam.. thanks a lot Caryn for accompanying me to hospital... :) i would remember ur Starbucks...

Semester 2 just started but assignment and lecture notes are already piled up.. was actually planned to go back this week since there are 5 days of holidays... but i changed my mind.. better stay here... going to Penang on tomorrow AGAIN... this would probably be the only destination i would go when i am in Kedah.... wanna make use for my holidays to rest, study,catch up with my taiwanese series and most importantly... write my new year resolutions.. as i always do...

wohoo.. i m listening to Hua Sha by Cindy n Jay Chau now.. replaying it for hours and i am still so in LOVE with it... nice song!! thanks to my good friend who shares the common taste.... thanks for sending me this song.. i love it.. :) i wonder u will visit my blog... hmm..

i would say gals are complicated creature.. even me myself whom i always thought as a simple gal, dun know what i want in my life... sometimes things seem to be so complicated n i am too afraid to make the next move.. too afraid to bear with it... we think differently.. not always in a logic ways but there are just so many tiny minor things that we gals actually think about, yet care about.... trust me... gals are never simple especially as we grown up... or probably... humans are never easy to handle.... anytime anywhere we might hurt someone without knowledge... with thorn words n rude acts.... cant we just be more simpler and lead a very very simple life? which i always hope i can....

i learnt from my pharmacology lecturer today... he told me : dun speak while u r angry... which i really agree with him.... we might prevent lots of unwanted incidents if we do follow this rule...

i am tired... accumulation from last week.. had a terrrible but unforgettable experience in my life... burning midnight oil together with Hsu Wern n Caryn.... sleepless nights lasted for 2 weeks...n i think its just a beginning of my life...so much of funny things happened in between... i wont forget the jokes me n caryn made while brushing teeth late in midnite.. and the YOGA i learnt from Hsu Wern to release our stress... there were so much fun in between though we were so stressed up... and i think this brought us closer.. and i m grateful :p

heres some random pictures i have after exams.... went Lebooss to celebrate n went to Tesco the next day....

OvERvIeW

Nothing much to blog about but just some observations and happenings in my life recently…

Some people are smart but some are hardworking

Some people are considerate but some are just so selfish

Some people are noisy but some are quiet

Some people are tolerate but some just dun willing to do so

Some people are annoying but some, we are just so LOVE to be with them

Some people dun reply our message but some are so willing to send us a sweet message

Some people study smart but some study hard

Some people dun understand us but some are just too understand us

So.. Which categories are you in?

People around me with different characters, different habits and with different point of views...we accept for who they are and try to compromise with them…
This is life.. not too long..yet..not too short.. its December.. and very soon 2010 is reaching.. and so fast.. I am 20 years old soon..but I am still behaving like 12 sometimes.. :p

A lot things happened this year..

i think i shall summarise all and let it be a memory of my life and my story... ^.^

January 09..

It's new year.. and this is the first time ever i celebrated New Year in AIMST..with Nicole and Penny.. went to cafeteria for supper n welcoming New Year around the clock tower in AIMST.. Celebrated JaCinta's bday as well on 19th by giving her a surprise with an album.. oh gosh.. look at my cute little fringe.. i will never cut it again!! haha..




February 09..

i still remember this was the busiest month of the year.. with 5 assignments all came together and at the same time Final was just around the corner..the most happening was our Bio Fair.. i really learnt a lot and it actually bridging up our friendship..i will never forgot how cooperative we were and its all worth the price.. went out for celebration after Bio Fair...thought of Joshua suddenly... who is now in MMU.. kinda miss him .. :S

March 09..

huhu!! this was the month that i was touched.. it was my FINAL and my BIrTHDay month..was really stress with my studies.. i know i gotta do well in order to enter my desired course.. DeAreSt Friends poured me with huge SuRpRiSe...i will never forget.. played hide and seek around the campus till 2am.. omg.. such a big babies we were! THANKS a lot for celebrating for me.. i appreciate it well.. :) not forgetting our GENTING trip after FINAL on 27th of March.. really had fun with u guys.. and this was the first time i entered outdoor themepark.. surprising huh..yup.. its true..

April 09..

came to the month where i was finally back to my home PJ.. for 4 months of holidays! the longest holiday i had ever.. and little did i know.. it passed silently fast.. i really made full use of this holiday... learnt driving, took part time job as primary teacher, tuition teacher at home, a little helper at home, a waitress at Secret Recipe, non-stop-meet -up with friends and stuffs... i had my BEST memory in Puay Chai.. and a terrible memory at Secret Recipe where i really learnt n became tougher...

and i guess i shall stop blogging.. to be continued next time when i am bored n got nothing to do..

life is short.. this is why i treasure every moment i having.. the people around me and the current life i having now.. i am so contented.... thanks to all my friends who really colored me life and i found myself quite Happy since ever i came to AIMST...

With the STRESS of course i carrying with myself most of the time in Degree.. but still.. i will continue to be cheerful and i believe in happy go lucky.. which i really know... i am so so lucky for what i am having now.. a warm and harmony family.. few BEST Gal Friends in PJay (Stef, Kim, Sin Yee, Peng Khuan, Ki Jun).. few in AIMST (HuiPing,Caryn, Penny n B3C, Clian).. and some really good Guy Friends around me.. u guys really helped me a lot whenever i am lost... a BIG thank you to u all.. REALLY... like what my lecturer once told me.. work in a TEAM and this is what i really do in Degree.. dun feel selfish n stingy when come to studies.. no points cause end up we will be the one who lost...

Making my final decision to enter Medic.. and i have yet to regret so far.. looking forward on the day i am graduating.. and my long long journey infront..

a typical Pisces.. a typical me... yet an unique me.. haha.. :p

gotta study now.. fighting for my future.. and i hope i will do well for my coming CA..

keep keep praying and i know success has got its price to be paid..

cheers... <3